Cause right now i really need to vent somewhere.
A week ago, They had told my brother, who is in the marines, That he was going to Iraq. They said that the plan was for him to go to a fort in California for 3 months and then in august get shipped there and stay for a whole year. I'm scared and angry. in a few hours i will have to say goodbye to my brother and it hurts me. You see my brother wanted to be in the marines cause he wanted to be a part of something bigger. He wanted to serve his country and to have something to be proud of. I'm terrified. I mean i just never thought that my brother would go out there. It makes me sick to my stomach. I'm trying to think positive but its not helping. I mean he has a fiancee and a beautiful 6 month old that he wont see for more than a year. I just i Don't want to have to think about it you know? I'm probably rambling on so im sorry if this doesn't make any sense. I just don't know what to say or think anymore. I guess thats all i have to say for now.