Comments | fleshflutter: Life in Monochrome (Gordon/Dean Sam/Dean UST, 4426 words, r-rated, AU)

fleshflutter

Life in Monochrome (Gordon/Dean Sam/Dean UST, 4426 words, r-rated, AU)

Oct 10, 2007 18:48

Because I watched Bloodlust last night and because someone put three meetings in my diary that I had no need to attend but had to go anyway…

Life in Monochrome
(Gordon/Dean Sam/Dean UST, 4426 words, r-rated, AU)
John dies while Sam's at Stanford and Sam discovers Dean has a new hunting partner.

( Sam's just coming out of a class when Dean calls and tells him that John's dead. )

au, dean/gordon, supernatural, fic, sam/dean

Comments 85

causeways October 10 2007, 18:22:32 UTC

Right up until the very end there, I was a little worried that Dean was actually going to let Gordon get away with killing Sam. Phew. The thing that's so creepy about this story is that I could definitely believe the set-up here: if John died while Sam wasn't around, I do think Dean would need someone like Gordon to keep him going. Cool stuff.

fleshflutter October 11 2007, 14:39:31 UTC

After reading your comment I spent a good long time wondering under what circumstances I'd have Dean allow someone murder Sam... I'm still thinking! But I am ever so glad you liked it, cherub! Thank you so much for reading and commenting! :)

dreamlittleyo October 10 2007, 18:29:51 UTC

Oh, BEAUTIFUL, honey. Just... gorgeous and harsh and brittle and intense... and beautifully written, as always. LOVED Dean not wanting Sam to know, and that there isn't even a second of hesitation at the end -- that he gives it long enough to be sure Gordon can't be talked down and then just does it. And THIS line just wrecked me (seriously, nearly made me choke on my spaghetti... which sounds like a bad thing, but I promise it just means it was THAT intense): "Not really. You don't seem to know that your own brother wants to fuck you. I don't think you'd know anything about Sammy if you didn't like what it was telling you."

And... and I want another story... *sheepish grin* It's a beautiful, perfect ending. God that closing line. But now I want to know what comes next. *fixes you with wide, hopeful eyes*

fleshflutter October 11 2007, 14:51:23 UTC

Oh I am absolutely thrilled that it worked for you! I totally wasn't meant to be writing it but Gordon/Dean just got stuck in my head and then work gave me the perfect opportunity to write it! Thank you so so much for the absolutely luscious feedback! ♥

I have to admit, I'm actually incredibly tempted to rewrite the whole thing from Gordon's point-of-view, but an 'after' hadn't occurred to me... *ponders*

dreamlittleyo October 11 2007, 15:11:49 UTC

Man, i wasn't meant to read Gordon/Dean, but this was just fantastic. So unhealthy, this 'relationship', and even though Sam got there too late to step in the middle of it, he doesn't need to because he was already there.

ooh, can we have both Gordon POV and 'after'? *hopes like woah*

girlfan1979 October 10 2007, 18:38:49 UTC

Well done!

When it comes to the weaker link, few bonds are tighter than those of siblings.

fleshflutter October 11 2007, 14:53:01 UTC

Oh I'm absolutely thrilled it worked for you! Thanks ever so much for reading! :)

ahania October 10 2007, 18:50:05 UTC

This was really shockingly good. I love the interplay between the three of them. I was a little skeptical at the beginning that Dean would become Gordon's bitch so easily but it makes sense that without Sam he would have fallen apart to that extent in the aftermath of John's death.

"I did what I had to. You or him. No shades of grey."

Great note to end it on. This is so sly. Maybe Sammy isn't getting his Dean back after all...

fleshflutter October 11 2007, 14:58:17 UTC

Ooh I'm glad I won you over! And I'm ever so pleased that this worked for you, especially the last line! I'm a sucker for people learning things off other people that they really shouldn't! Thank you so so much for reading and commenting! :)

angharadd October 10 2007, 19:33:46 UTC

The moment I decide that my worship for you could not possibly become any deeper, you post a new story, and I end up squeeing my way through it XD .

I've been intrigued with the possibility of Gordon/Dean ever since your Of Monsters and Men, and I'm really glad that you wrote this pairing. It's creepy, and wrong, and hot, and IC, and totally plausible. My attitude towards Gordon shifted from wanting to hit him to sorta kinda liking him a lot in the space of several sentences. The line that totally broke my heart was the one where Gordon said that Dean won't survive losing Sam - I went all "omg, but he does care for him, in his own twisted way'.

He steals a car at random and drives out of Palo Alto, out of California.
Love your Sam, as always.
The fact that he slips into the old routine that easily is more than a little sad, though.

It's odd coming back to Pastor Jim, like looking over study notes for an exam that's long since passed.
What a beautiful line!

He'd forgotten how quickly life on the road dirties you up.Just WOW ( ... )

fleshflutter October 11 2007, 15:07:02 UTC

Ooooh that's totally awesome feedback! Thank you so so so much for taking the time to comment so thoroughly - I really do appreciate it!
What I really loved about Bloodlust is how easily Dean fell in with Gordon's plans. He was in just the right emotional state not to think things through properly and it's only that Sam's there to pull him back that he doesn't help Gordon slaughter all of the vampires. I liked seeing how close to the edge Dean is sometimes. Plus he had scary chemistry with Gordon! :)

angharadd October 11 2007, 21:47:55 UTC

how easily Dean fell in with Gordon's plans
Yeah, he's not a leader by nature, so exploring the directions he might take had his influences shifted is really interesting. And he can get real scary on his own too - in S1, the scariest monster I've seen was Dean interrogating Mag. He's the most humane of the Winchester trio (John and Sam were too immersed in the idea of revenge at the time), but also, he was the creepiest one.