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[fleshcoversbone]

well wow. i'm getting an answer to my prayers, but ironically i'm not very happy about it. i always looked at answered prayers as something to be ecstatic about, and right now there is just this damp cloud of melancholy and morose surrounding my situation. i think the things i'm dealing with shouldn't be dealt with where i am. i might be seeing you all a lot sooner than i thought. it all depends on how the doctor's appointment goes. i am just in a psychadelic lull, coming to a realization of something maybe i should have realized before now. here's my song.

WISH UPON A SCAR
"here's a few lines so you know im alive" she said
and that's all, she left it at that.

i'm pouring my heart out and not getting much in return
and that's all, it's as simple as that.

tonight i'll reach down deep inside me
and wish upon my scar
and find the things that are keeping me alive

don't stop now, you're killing me
does this revitalize you?
when we meet that waited day
will i recognize you?

HERES MY HEAD ON A PLATTER
AND IT DOESN'T MATTER
THE THIRD DEGREE MARKS WILL PROVE HOW YOU BURNED ME
AND STAND AS A WITNESS BEFORE ALL
THAT YOU DRAINED ME

NO MORE VITAL SIGNS BLINKING ON THAT VACANT SCREEN
MY HOSPITAL BED IS NEATLY MADE
I'M DEAD AND GONE AS FAR AS YOU'RE CONCERNED
SO GIVE ME MY EULOGY
AND I'LL GO REst in PEACE