So far, today
Alright, so... I got up at 11:30 am, which is SUPER early for me. I almost never get up before 2:30, and often sleep 'til 4 or 5. Actually... come to think of it, I hardly ever get up in the 4:00 hour. It'll be 3 something or 5 something, but not 4. Huh.
Anyway, I'm glad. With so little daylight tis time of year, I've got to get as much as I can. Although I'm not out and about as much as I used to be -- oh, that reminds me, I haven't taken my vitamins.
I take a multivitamin that has 100% of most stuff I need, plus calcium with D, D with calcium (sometimes I just take two calciums because they both have the same amount of D but the latter has only 12% DV calcium), and B complex (sometimes two because it seems like a good idea). Then I also take at least one ritalin with them.
I fixed myself tomato soup and some cheddar lay's for breakfast, but I haven't eaten the chips. I think the soup was 170. It says 90 cals per serving on the can, and I made no effort to get the soup that stuck to the can out. So I took off ten for the soup that didn't go in. I made it with water; the last few times I made it with whole milk, which is delicious, but actually I kind of think that it is less bland when it's with water. I counted out 15 chips, one serving, but then I did the math and realized that 170 + 160 = 330, which is 30 too many calories. So I took out two chips. But they are still sitting here. I just forgot about them when I got on the computer, and I've been on ever since, adding people and comms from my old journal.
I weighed myself. I was just repeating over and over "please don't be 200, please don't be 200."
And it wasn't!
It was 199.4
I got lucky today, I'm sure. Maybe it's because somehow the universe (or whatever) knows that I would totally flip if I actually saw the number.
Well, fuck. I'm freaking out in my head. You know, on October 19th I was 179.8. So that means I have gained 20 lbs since then. WTF?
Does anybody else do this? ANYBODY?
Okay, fine. Fine! Fuck this.
Anyway, I'm glad. With so little daylight tis time of year, I've got to get as much as I can. Although I'm not out and about as much as I used to be -- oh, that reminds me, I haven't taken my vitamins.
I take a multivitamin that has 100% of most stuff I need, plus calcium with D, D with calcium (sometimes I just take two calciums because they both have the same amount of D but the latter has only 12% DV calcium), and B complex (sometimes two because it seems like a good idea). Then I also take at least one ritalin with them.
I fixed myself tomato soup and some cheddar lay's for breakfast, but I haven't eaten the chips. I think the soup was 170. It says 90 cals per serving on the can, and I made no effort to get the soup that stuck to the can out. So I took off ten for the soup that didn't go in. I made it with water; the last few times I made it with whole milk, which is delicious, but actually I kind of think that it is less bland when it's with water. I counted out 15 chips, one serving, but then I did the math and realized that 170 + 160 = 330, which is 30 too many calories. So I took out two chips. But they are still sitting here. I just forgot about them when I got on the computer, and I've been on ever since, adding people and comms from my old journal.
I weighed myself. I was just repeating over and over "please don't be 200, please don't be 200."
And it wasn't!
It was 199.4
I got lucky today, I'm sure. Maybe it's because somehow the universe (or whatever) knows that I would totally flip if I actually saw the number.
Well, fuck. I'm freaking out in my head. You know, on October 19th I was 179.8. So that means I have gained 20 lbs since then. WTF?
Does anybody else do this? ANYBODY?
Okay, fine. Fine! Fuck this.