My poor Raph.....
Today is the first day since I left the hospital that I actually miss it....really miss it, my heart melted when I saw one of my former patients on the tv this morning....he wasnt just any patient he was the one who changed my life....little Brendon....despite having cancer in a variety of forms, this child had the most incredible strength....everywhere he went his positive energy touched all....such a zest for life, even though he beat the cancer....it didnt last long until it came back and he was pronounced terminal, there was nothing left for them to do....he knew everything about his treatment, he was the first to know when given his death sentence, even with this awful news he continued to smile and to live each day to the very fullest....he was such an inspiration to us all.....I still hold dear, all of the things he gave me and all of the presents I ever recieved from him.....I wish I could see his family....anyway, these ramblings are the reason I miss that place....my tiny efforts did amount to something as it was evident in the programming.....I miss wokring with the kids, if it werent for the wretched staff, I would more then likely miss it more....I do miss it more and more with each passing day....I had an interview last week, that, in my opinion was my best one yet....at an animal hospital, which would be, in some way, similar to my work at the hospital, I hope I get it......speaking of animals, I have a very sick little turtle on my hands , I hae been researching and doing all that I can, but I do believe she is going to need meds, she has pneumonia....and an eye infection, I have been doing all I can to help her, but I feel so helpless, seeing her wheezing and gasping for air....poor little thing, I hope she makes it....I dont want to take her out into the cold to take her to the vet, and reptile vets are few and far between, so I would have to travel far.....I am worried about her, but Kevin said if she dies we will get a new beautiful tank and a new turtle and this time we wont sleep with door open when its 40 below outside......blah blah....I really hope she makes it though....I love her so....