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one of our kittens is dying of (myeloid) leukemia.
I don't know what to do. we can't stop its progression. she's lost so much weight. sweet, little zola.
we just had a few days of straight rain and the roads are a mess. potholes, mud, rocks, debris... crazy california weather. there's been a few bad mudslides around here where people died, lost homes. rivers and creeks overflowed... oh unforgiving mother nature.
there was no way out of the valley for a day or two.
my granddad passed away at 10:50am on Sunday... recently diagnosed with bladder cancer. they gave him a few weeks, but he didn't want to stay that long. I keep thinking - at least he's finally with his sweetheart again. happy. without pain. I wish I could have been there to hold his hand.
my body is so achey. lack of exercise. lack of eating. it's like being bruised all over, only not. where's the will to live.
my poor zola. just last month, she showed no signs of being sick. it hit like a landslide. we gave her a blood transfusion this morning, with the help of our Rufus, and that will give her another week or so. I pet her and she purrs and god, I'm gonna miss her so much.
cancer is eating holes in my family.
max is at work. the house is all mine, only I wish it wasn't. it feels too big.
I wonder when I'll start to really live.
I don't know what to do. we can't stop its progression. she's lost so much weight. sweet, little zola.
we just had a few days of straight rain and the roads are a mess. potholes, mud, rocks, debris... crazy california weather. there's been a few bad mudslides around here where people died, lost homes. rivers and creeks overflowed... oh unforgiving mother nature.
there was no way out of the valley for a day or two.
my granddad passed away at 10:50am on Sunday... recently diagnosed with bladder cancer. they gave him a few weeks, but he didn't want to stay that long. I keep thinking - at least he's finally with his sweetheart again. happy. without pain. I wish I could have been there to hold his hand.
my body is so achey. lack of exercise. lack of eating. it's like being bruised all over, only not. where's the will to live.
my poor zola. just last month, she showed no signs of being sick. it hit like a landslide. we gave her a blood transfusion this morning, with the help of our Rufus, and that will give her another week or so. I pet her and she purrs and god, I'm gonna miss her so much.
cancer is eating holes in my family.
max is at work. the house is all mine, only I wish it wasn't. it feels too big.
I wonder when I'll start to really live.