memaz05(00:37:43): it's the one thing we all forget about "crushes"
whenever we don't have a crush we want one. we want to have the heart-racing flirting, the nervous first few dates, and all the cuteness a new "crush" entails.
when we go awhile without a crush we find ourselves longing for these things.
then one inevitably comes along.
and sooner or later it happens.
we remember what a the first few weeks with those certain someones are really about.
uncertain first moves, awkward first dates, and the unraveling mystery that is this new person in your world. we remember just how awful it can be.
sometimes it can feel exciting.
but i can admit that after a certain point
is it really worth it?
i tried very hard to want to try very hard. but i think in that aspect i'm different now. i want different things than i wanted a year or so ago.
or maybe it's just my turn to go through a phase.
and after tonight i'm starting to get that it's not such a bad phase to go through...
when we go awhile without a crush we find ourselves longing for these things.
then one inevitably comes along.
and sooner or later it happens.
we remember what a the first few weeks with those certain someones are really about.
uncertain first moves, awkward first dates, and the unraveling mystery that is this new person in your world. we remember just how awful it can be.
sometimes it can feel exciting.
but i can admit that after a certain point
is it really worth it?
i tried very hard to want to try very hard. but i think in that aspect i'm different now. i want different things than i wanted a year or so ago.
or maybe it's just my turn to go through a phase.
and after tonight i'm starting to get that it's not such a bad phase to go through...