(exhaustion)
I did prac today.
The day started off badly, i just was tired & felt sick, & couldn't eat til around 2. But then things got better. I was with the babies 0-2, & they were beautiful. They were quiet today because they were grumpy & tired but they had a sleep & were so cute. 1 girl threw up on me, & I had to clean it up. 1 boy fell face first & ran crying to me, so I picked him up, gave him a frozen teething thing to suck on, & rubbed his head where he hurt it, then he put his head on my shoulder & fell asleep. 1 girl kept calling me mum all day, & it was sad because here are kids who go to child care almost every day. My policy is, if you can't look after your kid, & needs them to be in child care 5 days a week, don't have one at all. & everyone says "but mums have to work" & i'm just like, um hello if you know your going to have to work, pick between your career or kid. You can't do both, if your going to work everyday for 9 hours, don't have a kid. It makes me angry.
So they all loved me, which was good... they didn't cry when they were with me, sometimes I had 6 kids at a time. It was good, but so much work. Physically & emotionally draining, you can't sit down because you have to follow the kids everywhere, making sure everything is safe.... so I am absoloutely exhausted. Sometimes I wonder if i'm really cut out for child care, but it's in the moments where a baby is falling asleep in your arms, or smiles at you & as sad as it is calls you mum, that i start to feel like maybe i'm meant to be doing this.