Horoscope
Scorpio:
You've had quite the week, chock full of astronomically wonderful highs and subterranean lows -- and that's just not like you. If anything, you make a habit of being an emotional rock and never letting anything as trivial as a passing feeling come between you and your objectives. So now that your emotions are actually surfacing, you're having quite the time getting used to them. Fortunately, your companion is most definitely in the mood for this -- they've been waiting for it, in fact.
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My Yahoo Horoscope is eerily correct as usual. I have certainly been through the gamut of emotions this week...
My "companion", huh? I wonder exactly what it means by that. If anything my companions (friends and otherwise) are precisely one half the problem if not more.
I have had invitations to talk about things; unfortunately, I'm not so sure the people I want to talk to will be entirely supportive of the things I have to say. And well part of me says screw it, just be true to yourself at all costs; and the other part of me says "you've lost to much already" - especially these last few years it seems.
But how can I be true to myself - when I don't know what I want? ...not anymore.
But I also don't know what makes this situation, these people so valuable either. I guess part of me belongs, part of me knows I've found a home, my home; and the other part of me feels like they can't/won't possibly feel the same - not after they know what I've kept secret. I guess I'm just afraid this will be something they wouldn't understand, and I decided long ago I will never compromise and change myself for anyone ever again. So, instead of change, it just seems better to keep quiet, at least for now. I need to gather up some courage, even though that feels more difficult than going over the rainbow, and Lord knows I've done that.
Then of course, another one of my main issues - which besides a lack of courage - a concern for the outcome on the behalf of the other person who is involved. But this has been an issue now for years. It's been silently stewing away on the back-burners of my mind. Just recently to have been brought back to my attention as the pot is boiling over - little and big reminders of things I'm afraid I can't fix... and what's so bad about that? I'm afraid it can only get worse. Which is ridiculous - we broke eachothers' hearts, and haven't spoken in years.
On top of it all, rests the problem that some days, hours, or minutes even - I feel extremely lonely, while others I feel irritable and anti-social - aloof and independent at best. These songs have been sung, these tears have been cried.
And finally, even though I know full well that buying half of Japan won't cure any of it - damn it, I'm going to try.
You've had quite the week, chock full of astronomically wonderful highs and subterranean lows -- and that's just not like you. If anything, you make a habit of being an emotional rock and never letting anything as trivial as a passing feeling come between you and your objectives. So now that your emotions are actually surfacing, you're having quite the time getting used to them. Fortunately, your companion is most definitely in the mood for this -- they've been waiting for it, in fact.
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My Yahoo Horoscope is eerily correct as usual. I have certainly been through the gamut of emotions this week...
My "companion", huh? I wonder exactly what it means by that. If anything my companions (friends and otherwise) are precisely one half the problem if not more.
I have had invitations to talk about things; unfortunately, I'm not so sure the people I want to talk to will be entirely supportive of the things I have to say. And well part of me says screw it, just be true to yourself at all costs; and the other part of me says "you've lost to much already" - especially these last few years it seems.
But how can I be true to myself - when I don't know what I want? ...not anymore.
But I also don't know what makes this situation, these people so valuable either. I guess part of me belongs, part of me knows I've found a home, my home; and the other part of me feels like they can't/won't possibly feel the same - not after they know what I've kept secret. I guess I'm just afraid this will be something they wouldn't understand, and I decided long ago I will never compromise and change myself for anyone ever again. So, instead of change, it just seems better to keep quiet, at least for now. I need to gather up some courage, even though that feels more difficult than going over the rainbow, and Lord knows I've done that.
Then of course, another one of my main issues - which besides a lack of courage - a concern for the outcome on the behalf of the other person who is involved. But this has been an issue now for years. It's been silently stewing away on the back-burners of my mind. Just recently to have been brought back to my attention as the pot is boiling over - little and big reminders of things I'm afraid I can't fix... and what's so bad about that? I'm afraid it can only get worse. Which is ridiculous - we broke eachothers' hearts, and haven't spoken in years.
On top of it all, rests the problem that some days, hours, or minutes even - I feel extremely lonely, while others I feel irritable and anti-social - aloof and independent at best. These songs have been sung, these tears have been cried.
And finally, even though I know full well that buying half of Japan won't cure any of it - damn it, I'm going to try.