Thar she blows.
Oooooh... I am so angry right now.
I can't sleep I am so irritated. And I have to get up in 5 hours to move my car.
I tried to talk to her. I said I wouldn't, but I'm glad I did, because now I definitely won't make THAT mistake again.
Things were going alright once I left all her stuff at her entryway in a bag on Monday morning.
She stopped calling to threaten me if I didn't give her (broken) pajamas back. Then she actually thanked me for repairing them, and for recovering her music files from my computer, etc, blahdiblah. Yeah, I repaired her freaking pajamas before I returned them, I didn't really want to, but I said I would fix them. Ok, so maybe I wanted to. Maybe I wanted to prove the point that I'm not a huge bitch who can't be trusted like all of her other exes. I wanted to prove that she was throwing someone nice away, and acting like a completely irrational fuck-up. And while I may have proven it, it didn't get me anywhere.
So, things were going alright, I was even considering being friends again one day. We talked and cleared a lot of things up.
Then I somehow mentioned that my friends were all pretty peeved about what happened. At which point she gets all smug and says "Give them my address." "Bring it on." and "I'd snap their necks." So I asked her not to say those things to me; and she didn't understand why until I explained that they are my friends and they are just trying to support me, and show that they care - which is more than she ever did (and I actually said that too), so please don't say mean things about or threaten the people who are there for me. And she gets all mad, asking what I told my friends, and why I told them our personal business. I said, "I told them the truth." and repeated once again that they are my friends, and they care about me and support me and when I needed someone to talk to - because she certainly wasn't going to listen, they were there.
And this is all after she asked to talk today, and I said I didn't want to, and we agreed to talk next week. But then she called to ask for a ride because she had been walking on her foot (healing from a broken ankle) too much today, and she didn't think she could make it home. Of course, I hopped up to get her - I even gave up my good parking spot of which I wouldn't have to move by 7am.
Argh, I am so mad right now.
She also told me what "my friend" (a mutual friend of ours, the girl that introduced us years ago - now she is MY friend not ours or hers, and I'm not even the one of us that talks to her anymore) said to her about the situation... that maybe I deserved what happened. That I somehow had it coming. Getting hit. I am so pissed right now. I wasn't even going to talk to that girl anymore, but now I want to strangle her then not talk to her! The freaking nerve! What a bunch of freaks!!!!
So, after all that I was so mad, I asked her to return my Ganesha and red maple yo-yo. I wasn't going to ask her to return either, because I thought it just wasn't that worth it to go through the trouble. I had previously felt that she should just keep the Ganesha because she had some major issues to get through (Ganesha is the Hindu deity known for removing obstacles). But I was so mad I just wanted my stuff back even though it doesn't matter.
I was talking to Rocio earlier today, and she said we (Rocio and I) are both sweet, sensitive people and so she understands where I'm coming from, I deserve better, etc. It made me realize that when Elle says I am sweet or sensitive it feels like such a slight. It's like she can't say anything with heart. She doesn't have a heart. She can't even apologize sincerely.
Ooh, and another thing, pretty much everything she said when we first re-met, before we started dating, is basically untrue. Not that she lied. She is not who she was, and doesn't want what she wanted. I feel like that person I talked to yesterday was a complete stranger! Somehow I think she may feel the same way... which certainly doesn't make me feel any better. I'm confused, if anything. Betrayed.
There is so much more going on in my head right now, but it is all a jumble and the only things I can manage to extract anymore are incoherent babbling mixed with cursing and sound effects -- so, I need to try to get to bed.
Good night.
I can't sleep I am so irritated. And I have to get up in 5 hours to move my car.
I tried to talk to her. I said I wouldn't, but I'm glad I did, because now I definitely won't make THAT mistake again.
Things were going alright once I left all her stuff at her entryway in a bag on Monday morning.
She stopped calling to threaten me if I didn't give her (broken) pajamas back. Then she actually thanked me for repairing them, and for recovering her music files from my computer, etc, blahdiblah. Yeah, I repaired her freaking pajamas before I returned them, I didn't really want to, but I said I would fix them. Ok, so maybe I wanted to. Maybe I wanted to prove the point that I'm not a huge bitch who can't be trusted like all of her other exes. I wanted to prove that she was throwing someone nice away, and acting like a completely irrational fuck-up. And while I may have proven it, it didn't get me anywhere.
So, things were going alright, I was even considering being friends again one day. We talked and cleared a lot of things up.
Then I somehow mentioned that my friends were all pretty peeved about what happened. At which point she gets all smug and says "Give them my address." "Bring it on." and "I'd snap their necks." So I asked her not to say those things to me; and she didn't understand why until I explained that they are my friends and they are just trying to support me, and show that they care - which is more than she ever did (and I actually said that too), so please don't say mean things about or threaten the people who are there for me. And she gets all mad, asking what I told my friends, and why I told them our personal business. I said, "I told them the truth." and repeated once again that they are my friends, and they care about me and support me and when I needed someone to talk to - because she certainly wasn't going to listen, they were there.
And this is all after she asked to talk today, and I said I didn't want to, and we agreed to talk next week. But then she called to ask for a ride because she had been walking on her foot (healing from a broken ankle) too much today, and she didn't think she could make it home. Of course, I hopped up to get her - I even gave up my good parking spot of which I wouldn't have to move by 7am.
Argh, I am so mad right now.
She also told me what "my friend" (a mutual friend of ours, the girl that introduced us years ago - now she is MY friend not ours or hers, and I'm not even the one of us that talks to her anymore) said to her about the situation... that maybe I deserved what happened. That I somehow had it coming. Getting hit. I am so pissed right now. I wasn't even going to talk to that girl anymore, but now I want to strangle her then not talk to her! The freaking nerve! What a bunch of freaks!!!!
So, after all that I was so mad, I asked her to return my Ganesha and red maple yo-yo. I wasn't going to ask her to return either, because I thought it just wasn't that worth it to go through the trouble. I had previously felt that she should just keep the Ganesha because she had some major issues to get through (Ganesha is the Hindu deity known for removing obstacles). But I was so mad I just wanted my stuff back even though it doesn't matter.
I was talking to Rocio earlier today, and she said we (Rocio and I) are both sweet, sensitive people and so she understands where I'm coming from, I deserve better, etc. It made me realize that when Elle says I am sweet or sensitive it feels like such a slight. It's like she can't say anything with heart. She doesn't have a heart. She can't even apologize sincerely.
Ooh, and another thing, pretty much everything she said when we first re-met, before we started dating, is basically untrue. Not that she lied. She is not who she was, and doesn't want what she wanted. I feel like that person I talked to yesterday was a complete stranger! Somehow I think she may feel the same way... which certainly doesn't make me feel any better. I'm confused, if anything. Betrayed.
There is so much more going on in my head right now, but it is all a jumble and the only things I can manage to extract anymore are incoherent babbling mixed with cursing and sound effects -- so, I need to try to get to bed.
Good night.