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Blah. Tomorrow I'm hanging out with Garrett. I'm in a mood right now. And i didn't say Blah to hanging out with Garrett, I said blah just to say it. I'm listening to a song off of the CD Lance made me. You know, he's really a wonderful person, but our timing just sucked, and I guess it wasn't meant to be, even though we had pre-concieved notions. Do you hate it when you think you're in love with someone, but you can't have them, only because someone else does. That's annoying. But imagine how the person who has them feels. Pretty fuckin good. But you always think...'no one can love them as mcuh as I do.' maybe they can though. Myabe there's someoe out there who not only loves them as much as you, but they love them more, and they got there first. That's a REAL downer...that's the kind of stuff people don't like to think about. But you know what? People are self-centered. every freakin' one of us...ugh....i don't even know how to convey what I'm feeling right now. I wish society wasn't so centered around appearence, you get sucked in. Sometimes I don't want to sound like a Jappy Bitch, but I can;t help it...even though I'm not. Why are people the way they are? why do things happen the way they do...these are the kind of things that keep me up at night, thinking...over analyzing...but that's what I do...let my mind take me places...I really should try to break myself of that habit, shouldn't I?
~*~Alaina~*~
~*~Alaina~*~