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[flchickie120]

so i was reading some old journal entries and decided to update since its been awhile. a week ago today i was at home in michigan. it was alright. me and allen fought alot but thats bc its sooo stressful being home and trying to see everyone. but allen met sam which was really cool. they got along pretty well too. but i dont think im going to talk to him anymore bc i told him i dont want him talking to samantha, which i feel i have total right to do. but anyways, we're home now and im really not working much. i personally hate it bc i cant sit at home this much. im starting to get all depressed and realizing all that i have lost. i mean really its not a WHOLE lot bc when i left michigan i really had nothing, but the few things i did still have are now gone. i just feel sooo alone, here and there. i have allens family and mine and thats it. i really have no friends anymore. the only girl i talk to anymore here is either lindsey leduc occasionally or kim, my manager at work. guys....dont really talk to any of them either unless its the guys at work. it sux but i guess i have to get over it.

so im starting to really miss all my old friends, like bre, amy, emily, carrie, renee and heather. we used to have sooo much fun together. and now that we have all gone are seperate ways i never talk to any of them. it sux. but i guess its part of life. and all the guys. they used to protect me whenever i needed it. i always knew they were there for me. i just wish i knew what i did to all of them to make them not even give a shit about me anymore.

well i gg now...my babys home...talk to you all later...BYE