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[flblondie8907]

im sick of it. so very sick of it. you can't see what you've done to me. and you never will. there's nothing that can be done to replace what we had. i wish we were, how we were, before what we were. what did i do? because i wont do something with you, you kick me to the gutter, you think im inconsequential. you tell me that you'll wait for me until im ready. do you? no. you're so parsimonious and i hope you're knowledgeable enough to observe that. you'll never read this. and you'll never know what i've done to myself because of you. i hate you. but yet i love you. you've twisted my world completely. into something thats so utterly fraudulent. i put everything aside for you: school, family, friends, life, health. everything. you're oblivious. im sorry i met you. im sorry your screen name popped up that one day and im sorry i IM'd you asking who it was. im sorry you IM'd me back telling me your name. im sorry i made you recollect everything we had. im sorry you called me. im sorry we hung out. im sorry i kissed you. but most of all im sorry i fell in love with you. dont ever try to talk to me again. i'll be a fool and fall for the same foolhardy and petty ways that you have. i take back every nice thing i ever said. i take back all our jokes. i take back all the i love you's. i take back halloween. i take back everything. i take back every last tear that's ever been shed for you. I TAKE BACK EVERYTHING. you hurt me SO bad..

yours truly.
anne elizabeth schollard