Deep Thoughts No. 16

[flawless420]

I slit my wrists and open my eyes
How many chances how many tries
How many tries do you fuckin need
as you watch me cry and watch me bleed.....

im bleeding inside
as i swollow my pride
no need to hide
that inside i died.....

you enflict pain and are enflicted
my life is not how i depicted
over and over again i say
that i will change starting today

then i open my eyes
swollow the lies
and stop the cries
and my heart wont rise....

because its sinking
when im thinking....

we cant be
and you dont see
what you do to me
i wish that i could be free...

free from pain
im goin insaine
you are a drain
my face is plain

i have no emotion no more.....
no emtion no more...

empty.........

and im alone again just like before
my eyes burn my bodies sore
i feel like people hurt me for kicks
i feel like im surrounded by a wall of bricks
i fall in this hole and the darkness will swallow
i will die if this way of life i continue to follow......

you will never understand all i needed was attention
i didnt want trouble or any intervention
just wanted you to spend some time with me
so you could see the things i see
and share with my the things i got
kick back in my room smoking pot
chillin having fun laughin being dumb
but that wont happen and my head is numb
but its cool cause i see your over it
but its cool that you dont give a shit.....

you were my diamond in the rough
why was it so fuckin tough
for you to understand
if u just looked up heres my hand
wanting you and to be with you
my feelings for you were oh so true

and then one day i did awake
and realized that you were so fake
and my heart you did break......

Flawless.........