...we kick it back poolside- down by the oceanside...
Soo i'm going to Ohio w/ Rosalee on sunday!! Im so excited & happy to just get away for a week. Last nite i hung out w/ Jason at his apartment. He asked me if i was his "girl". And i actually said yea. It must be what i want bcuz i didnt even have to think of the answer. It just came out. So we chilled at the pool and in the hottub and talked. Then took a shower ;0). Today is my only day off until i leave. I was supposed to be off Thursday, but they asked me to work and i need the money. Even tho im about to go charge a pair of jeans. When i find jeans that fit me i cant just pass them up. I tried them on the other day w/ another pair that i bought for work, and i could only afford one pair. But ive been thinkin about the other ones!! So im just gonna put em on the good ole charge card. Heh, theyll make me happy. Jason has this book about this problem some people have called "chronic discontent". He says he has it and by reading the book, i think i have a small case of it too. Theres a part of the book that asks you 'how do you feel right now?' and i was like hmm how do i feel? and then it said, if u have to think about it for more then a few seconds then u might have CD. And there were a couple other things too. Not being able to become happy and stay that way. Yea, thats me. Even when i am happy i find a way to ruin it...ie. Brandon. Ahh well, right now im not happy, but im not sad either...kind of in the middle waiting to see what happens. Alright im gonna go watch Elimidate..bye