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I worry too much. I constantly imagine worst case scenario when it usually turns out that nothing is wrong. I also constantly think about the future. Where am I going to be 10 years down the road? Or even one for that matter. I worry especially now because in less than a month I am going to be done with college (kinda) and I dont know what I want to do with my life. I cant live at home without going crazy and I need to get a job so I cant be gallibanting around the state like I would like to visiting people here and there. So I guess right now my only choice is to pay a ridiculous amount for a single bedroom apartment and get a job somewhere in state college.
Then there is the fact that I am going to be so far away from my loved one. I can barely stand being just over the mountain from him for one day, how am I going to go weeks being hours away? What's going to happen? I fear that once again I'm going to hear the same thing. "You live too far away."
It's the most retarded excuse for a break up I've ever heard and yet it was the one that hit me the hardest. Especially after we had been through so much in so little time. I was depressed for months. There were times when I would just lock myself in my room for weeks and not eat. I would just sit and write shitty depressed poetry and listen to depressing love songs. All because I lived too far away.
I worry that I'll be too far away.
Then there is the fact that I am going to be so far away from my loved one. I can barely stand being just over the mountain from him for one day, how am I going to go weeks being hours away? What's going to happen? I fear that once again I'm going to hear the same thing. "You live too far away."
It's the most retarded excuse for a break up I've ever heard and yet it was the one that hit me the hardest. Especially after we had been through so much in so little time. I was depressed for months. There were times when I would just lock myself in my room for weeks and not eat. I would just sit and write shitty depressed poetry and listen to depressing love songs. All because I lived too far away.
I worry that I'll be too far away.