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My beautiful friends at Graduation.. May 19th.
Eric, Josh, Danielle, Elaina, Zach..
Where was I? I was talking to my family members.. Probably my dad.. Or my cousins Grampa.
I donno..
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Yesterday, nothing happened. I mean, Mike got home from work and ate some Ramen Noodles. Then around 4:30 or so we went to Barbara's house to do clothes. We only did one load, we have like, 3 more to do that we'll do this weekend, or something. I'm in no hurry, that's for damn sure. I have plenty of clothes. Mainly pajama pants, but I have clothes!! :) I donno. I made steak and baked potatoes and corn on the cob last night but I didn't eat anything. I couldn't. My stomach was hurting me.. Yeah..
We watched Monster-in-law last night.. And the night before.. I love that movie though. It's so funny.
Anyways, Friday I have a doctors appointment at 9:30 in the morning, 45 minutes away..
& Friday is also 4 years since my mother passed away..
Mom, I love you and miss you so much. I really wish you could be here. It was so hard walking across that stage on graduation day.. Now you're going to miss your grand baby being born. You're going to miss me getting married. I miss you so much. It's so crazy. Sometimes I'll be laying in bed, Mike will think everything's perfectly find. & I'll just bust out crying. I don't know why. Sometimes when I think of you all I can do is cry. But other times I laugh, and smile. Even the good memories make me cry. Because I simply wish we could've had more of them. It makes me so sad to know that you won't be here to see my baby grow up. You couldn't even be here to watch me grow up completely. But, no matter what happens, ever, I will never forget you. You'll forever be in my heart. I go to your grave as much as possible but it's kind of difficult how it's in Texas. I think you should've been buried here in Arkansas where all of your kids are. Me and the boys like talking to you, and we can't do that when you're 6 hours away from us. Sometimes I'll go on the front porch and talk to you, I'll look up at the sky and see a shooting star. It gives me butterflies, I don't know if it's you looking down on me, or if it's just a coincidence. I hope one day I'll be able to see you again. But, not anytime soon. I have to live to see my baby mature, mommy. I love you so much and always will. You've always been my best friend and I'll never, ever, ever, forget you! I love you.
K.. Going to go.
Miss you..