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I feel like updating! woo hoo!
Headed to Haverhill the weekend of the 13th.
I am QUITE excited! My plan is to save some money.... go down.... and when I leave.... have none of it left. That would just rule!
I got a promotion at Market Basket... I work in the "Courtesy Booth" which is all customer service shit. It's a lot harder and even after 3 weeks I still don't know everything but the girls I work with are the best and time just flies and I get to wear a pretty blue coat and not an ugly maroon one that makes me look fat! Yay! I'm still in checkout on some days... and those some days suck!
Sooo the other day Timmy and I were washing our cars (me because I was bored... him because he really is a fuckin neat freak) and my mum calls up and says I have to go to Keene and go to the Keene State bookstore for a book reservation. Well despite the fact that I'm going to school there.... I don't know where a damn thing is on that campus.... so I asked Tim if he wanted to come (hoping he would because I didn't know where I was going) and he said "No I don't" so I got all upset and I got in my still wet car, slammed the door and sped off. I started crying in the car because a) I didn't know what I was doing and b) because I was just a real ass to Tim. I turned the car around and drove back, got out, hugged him while I was crying and said I was sorry I just don't know my way around there and I didn't wanna get lost. He felt bad so he came with me. As I'm driving there he fell asleep and I was thinking to myself "I am the most spoiled little shit in the world."
Not only has my mum been keeping me on track with Keene State shit.... here Tim is... on his day off relaxing and I cry my way into dragging him along. I'm such a shit. I've known deep down for a long time that everything is mostly handed to me or I can get what I want so easily. But here I am saying it outside of my mind.... and I want to say I'm sorry. Sorry to everyone for the person I am.
I can't even drive to my own college to get something so stupid done.... how am I supposed to go there? The only things I've done for myself are buy my car, pay for it's inspection, pay for it's insurance, Keene's acceptance fee, gas money and any random things I want to buy for myself. I just about support myself financially but I can't seem to support myself mentally or emotionally. There is something very wrong with me. I found out that my mum said this to Tim : "Devynn is pretty lucky to have you. When we won't do everything for her anymore, she has a guy that will anyways. I hope she realizes that."
From the second he told me that... I knew it was true. My parents do mostly everything for me.... and once I leave.... Tim will do everything for me.
I just hope college is a good wake up call for me. Maybe I'll learn to to do things on my own.
*sigh*
Headed to Haverhill the weekend of the 13th.
I am QUITE excited! My plan is to save some money.... go down.... and when I leave.... have none of it left. That would just rule!
I got a promotion at Market Basket... I work in the "Courtesy Booth" which is all customer service shit. It's a lot harder and even after 3 weeks I still don't know everything but the girls I work with are the best and time just flies and I get to wear a pretty blue coat and not an ugly maroon one that makes me look fat! Yay! I'm still in checkout on some days... and those some days suck!
Sooo the other day Timmy and I were washing our cars (me because I was bored... him because he really is a fuckin neat freak) and my mum calls up and says I have to go to Keene and go to the Keene State bookstore for a book reservation. Well despite the fact that I'm going to school there.... I don't know where a damn thing is on that campus.... so I asked Tim if he wanted to come (hoping he would because I didn't know where I was going) and he said "No I don't" so I got all upset and I got in my still wet car, slammed the door and sped off. I started crying in the car because a) I didn't know what I was doing and b) because I was just a real ass to Tim. I turned the car around and drove back, got out, hugged him while I was crying and said I was sorry I just don't know my way around there and I didn't wanna get lost. He felt bad so he came with me. As I'm driving there he fell asleep and I was thinking to myself "I am the most spoiled little shit in the world."
Not only has my mum been keeping me on track with Keene State shit.... here Tim is... on his day off relaxing and I cry my way into dragging him along. I'm such a shit. I've known deep down for a long time that everything is mostly handed to me or I can get what I want so easily. But here I am saying it outside of my mind.... and I want to say I'm sorry. Sorry to everyone for the person I am.
I can't even drive to my own college to get something so stupid done.... how am I supposed to go there? The only things I've done for myself are buy my car, pay for it's inspection, pay for it's insurance, Keene's acceptance fee, gas money and any random things I want to buy for myself. I just about support myself financially but I can't seem to support myself mentally or emotionally. There is something very wrong with me. I found out that my mum said this to Tim : "Devynn is pretty lucky to have you. When we won't do everything for her anymore, she has a guy that will anyways. I hope she realizes that."
From the second he told me that... I knew it was true. My parents do mostly everything for me.... and once I leave.... Tim will do everything for me.
I just hope college is a good wake up call for me. Maybe I'll learn to to do things on my own.
*sigh*