(new title ) "Life's a bitch but no one has to go out like one"--Knicole /Rome and then some
So yesterday I spent the whole day with Ricky, we watched some movies, one of them was Malibu's Most Wanted with Jamie Kennedy, uhm that movie was ok some parts were really funny, and some were ok but uh then we went to visit my cousin Michael (the one that tried to commit suicide).
Oh yeah I never wrote about that incident in my live journal or the accident (thats all the stuff that was causing hell in my life that was too much to write about) but ya basically my cousin jumped off a bridge, broke his fingers, his wrists, hit back, his pelvis, his legs, his ankles, his knees, and he dislocated something in his neck, a disc I think. Talk about a mess, geez, but it's been awhile since then, I think about a month or two, and the other day I found out that he was at his house now. It's amazing that he lived and a miracle that he's not paralyzed. He had to have a bunch of different surgeries, but I think he's done now, he's just on the road to recovering which will be a long ass time. I can't believe that he's going to be able to walk again (thank God). So when I went to see him at my uncle's house they had a hospital bed stationed in the living room so that he could watch TV and stuff like that. It was so weird to see him, he looked almost normal( as far as his face was, I didn't see the condition of the rest of his body because he was laying down in the bed, I don't know if he can even sit up.) It was nice to see him talking normally and everything though, I was really suprised, he was acting himself and we were talking about life and school in general. It was sad to see the scars all over his arms from the surgery. He's grown a lot of facial hair and he looks skinnier than ever.
(sigh) I love my cousin like a brother, and I can only pray that his life will get better. I just can't help but wonder all the things he was thinking at that moment. Sad. But I can't say that I've never been there before. I think most of us have at least thought about it once in our lives. But it's when things like this happen that we learn to appreciate what we have and where we are in life. "Life's a bitch but no one has to go out like one."--Knicole. My grandmother was talking to me recently and she said," I was always worried about you, and wondered how you kept yourself together through all of the hardships in your life. But I'm so proud of who you are and how you've handled it all. I think you are the one that Mike needs to talk to...I love you" and then she hugged me. It was one of the most wonderful things that anyone has ever said to me and then it made me take a look at my life and love it( at least some of it... ok only the good parts). So I just wanted to say THANK YOU to everyone who stood by my side and helped me to overcome my obstacles. All of you guys have been great inspirations. I love you!
Oh yeah I never wrote about that incident in my live journal or the accident (thats all the stuff that was causing hell in my life that was too much to write about) but ya basically my cousin jumped off a bridge, broke his fingers, his wrists, hit back, his pelvis, his legs, his ankles, his knees, and he dislocated something in his neck, a disc I think. Talk about a mess, geez, but it's been awhile since then, I think about a month or two, and the other day I found out that he was at his house now. It's amazing that he lived and a miracle that he's not paralyzed. He had to have a bunch of different surgeries, but I think he's done now, he's just on the road to recovering which will be a long ass time. I can't believe that he's going to be able to walk again (thank God). So when I went to see him at my uncle's house they had a hospital bed stationed in the living room so that he could watch TV and stuff like that. It was so weird to see him, he looked almost normal( as far as his face was, I didn't see the condition of the rest of his body because he was laying down in the bed, I don't know if he can even sit up.) It was nice to see him talking normally and everything though, I was really suprised, he was acting himself and we were talking about life and school in general. It was sad to see the scars all over his arms from the surgery. He's grown a lot of facial hair and he looks skinnier than ever.
(sigh) I love my cousin like a brother, and I can only pray that his life will get better. I just can't help but wonder all the things he was thinking at that moment. Sad. But I can't say that I've never been there before. I think most of us have at least thought about it once in our lives. But it's when things like this happen that we learn to appreciate what we have and where we are in life. "Life's a bitch but no one has to go out like one."--Knicole. My grandmother was talking to me recently and she said," I was always worried about you, and wondered how you kept yourself together through all of the hardships in your life. But I'm so proud of who you are and how you've handled it all. I think you are the one that Mike needs to talk to...I love you" and then she hugged me. It was one of the most wonderful things that anyone has ever said to me and then it made me take a look at my life and love it( at least some of it... ok only the good parts). So I just wanted to say THANK YOU to everyone who stood by my side and helped me to overcome my obstacles. All of you guys have been great inspirations. I love you!