Beauty from Pain- SuperChick
At the end of this entry...I have included this song that I have been listening to on repeat.
God, life has been so hard lately in so many things- I am just feeling suffocated by things- I want to give everything away and float to neverland on a cloud.
I feel like I am smothered by all this surrounding hate- it is hard to wake up sometimes. Hard to make myself get out of bed.
But I kid myself, because everyone knows that I am happy, and that I am not sad- and that I can stop myself from hurting and being so lost.
I'm tired of all my lies.
The lights go out all around me--
one last candle to keep out the night--
and then the darkness surrounds me,
I know I'm alive, but I feel like I've died.
And all that's left is to accept that it's over.
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made.
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder.
I feel like I'm slipping away.
After all this has passed,
I still will remain.
After I've cried my last,
there'll be beauty from pain.
Though it won't be today,
someday I'll hope again.
And there'll be beauty from pain.
You will bring beauty from my pain.
My whole world is the pain inside me.
The best I can do is just get through the day.
When life before is only a memory,
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place.
And though I can't understand why this happened,
I know that I will when I look back someday,
and see how you've brought beauty from ashes,
and made me as gold purified through these flames.
After all this has passed,
I still will remain.
After I've cried my last,
there'll be beauty from pain.
Though it won't be today,
someday I'll hope again.
And there'll be beauty from pain.
You will bring beauty from my pain.
Here I am, at the end of me,
tryin' to hold to what I can't see.
I forgot how to hope.
This night's been so long.
I cling to Your promise
there will be a dawn.
After all this has passed,
I still will remain.
After I've cried my last,
there'll be beauty from pain.
Though it won't be today,
someday I'll hope again.
And there'll be beauty from pain.
You will bring beauty from my pain.
God, life has been so hard lately in so many things- I am just feeling suffocated by things- I want to give everything away and float to neverland on a cloud.
I feel like I am smothered by all this surrounding hate- it is hard to wake up sometimes. Hard to make myself get out of bed.
But I kid myself, because everyone knows that I am happy, and that I am not sad- and that I can stop myself from hurting and being so lost.
I'm tired of all my lies.
The lights go out all around me--
one last candle to keep out the night--
and then the darkness surrounds me,
I know I'm alive, but I feel like I've died.
And all that's left is to accept that it's over.
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made.
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder.
I feel like I'm slipping away.
After all this has passed,
I still will remain.
After I've cried my last,
there'll be beauty from pain.
Though it won't be today,
someday I'll hope again.
And there'll be beauty from pain.
You will bring beauty from my pain.
My whole world is the pain inside me.
The best I can do is just get through the day.
When life before is only a memory,
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place.
And though I can't understand why this happened,
I know that I will when I look back someday,
and see how you've brought beauty from ashes,
and made me as gold purified through these flames.
After all this has passed,
I still will remain.
After I've cried my last,
there'll be beauty from pain.
Though it won't be today,
someday I'll hope again.
And there'll be beauty from pain.
You will bring beauty from my pain.
Here I am, at the end of me,
tryin' to hold to what I can't see.
I forgot how to hope.
This night's been so long.
I cling to Your promise
there will be a dawn.
After all this has passed,
I still will remain.
After I've cried my last,
there'll be beauty from pain.
Though it won't be today,
someday I'll hope again.
And there'll be beauty from pain.
You will bring beauty from my pain.