#15 - Annoyed at myself.
Boo. It's 3:05 a.m., I have to leave for school in about 8 hours and I haven't done the super important biology homework yet. Boo!
I decided to minimize my eating for some time. The problem is, I don't know what to eat. I mean, I can't eat healthy and I binge eat all the damn time. So I'll try to eat as little as possible, even if that is also the wrong way. I need to learn to portion size again and then I can start normally again. This sucks!
But, and this sounds shallow and dumb, I think Simon is only going to see me, if I lose weight. Quickly. And for our graduation party vacation I want to be skinny and look good in a swimming suit. I'll start volleyball again tomorrow, and my mom might actually pay for a gym membership! :D
I'm tired. I'll clean up my room, do the homework and sleep then. G'night!
I decided to minimize my eating for some time. The problem is, I don't know what to eat. I mean, I can't eat healthy and I binge eat all the damn time. So I'll try to eat as little as possible, even if that is also the wrong way. I need to learn to portion size again and then I can start normally again. This sucks!
But, and this sounds shallow and dumb, I think Simon is only going to see me, if I lose weight. Quickly. And for our graduation party vacation I want to be skinny and look good in a swimming suit. I'll start volleyball again tomorrow, and my mom might actually pay for a gym membership! :D
I'm tired. I'll clean up my room, do the homework and sleep then. G'night!