Funny how the mind works
The mind never ceases to amaze me...
So, long story short, yeah..he fucked up. Did something he never should have done, broke my trust and sent me off flying into a ball of confusion.
We talked..or..rather -I- talked..he just sat there...pale, shivering curled up like a bunny in front of a tiger...
I thought I was ok with what happened...that I had ( Read more... )
i tried like hell to fix or forget but in the end all was lost i did my best but he wasn't there any longer he was someone i didn't know anymore and every time i tried to talk to him about it or try to make the best of it it was like i was talking to a blank slate
the whole thing started with a lie alot of lies from some of the people i cared most about and i couldn't and still can't understand why it happened or why he couldn't be him anymore because of it
and in the end it was the end
now he wont even stand in the same room as me or look me in the eyes
it's like i was erased from his life mind and heart completely
and i was crushed in fact i still am
but i'm not telling you this to bring you down i know the situation is different and things can be fixed but when it feels like you're the only one trying to make anything better it feels like everythings just getting worse
and i honestly do hope everything works out for the best for you
i hope he wakes up for the empty slate it seems like he's become and be there for you when you need that
the one thing i learned from my experience is it does take two to fix things sometimes and when you're sitting in a car or a room with that one person and you feel empty and completely alone they need to wake up stand up and realize it takes two to tango but it only takes that one person to put the light back into your eyes
i hope all turns out for the best
and i hope that you'll be able to genuinely smile for all the right reasons again
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I guess you hit the nale on the wall...
He`s scared to death that I will end this because of his little adveture, and because of that he`s totally in a stand still...He said so himself..scared of saing or doing the wrong thing...
It only results in him not doing anything...
It was not a big deal..but he lied about it..I found out..and he kept on trying to hide it. That made the doubt grow in my head...and that is what I`m fighting with now..trying -so- hard to trust him again.
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