Damn It...
well now i wish i would have went to school today im feelin kinda sick with some dumb tonsilitis shit i've had for like a month oh well life must go on well now i have many many hours to sit around watch CMT as i am now and to smoke although that kills my throat but yeah i got up early to talk to my brother now i think i might go sleepy bye since hes gone we both got up yelling at each other to go to school hes such a strange person hehe... um i guess alex is gonna stay the night at kirsties thank god because i dont know if i could have put up with her right now with my illness and other "problems" and alicia wants to spend the night geez how do i get all the losers attracted to me i must be some magnent or something i guess me and britney kirstie and alex are going to the talent show tonight im not quite sure whether kevin or nick are going but i sure hope so :) already i get rumors spread about me just because im talking to kevin apparently i am giving him head too now and that,according to eric and ryan, makes me a nasty whore but its not the first or last time either of them will call me that i just wanna call eric and be like you know what i still have really strong feelings for you and it really angriates me when you call me a nasty whore because i did the same thing to you and you werent complainin but i guess theres a little part of my heart that wants to get back with him REALLY bad but some how i dont see that happening he has no clue how much he means to me but thats his normal everyday routine and it doesnt bother him one bit to fuck with every girls mind he meets ok well moody told me that if i cheated on him again he wouldnt break up with me technically he would just stop calling me and then he says i'll get the idea w/e he wants is perfectly fine with me i dont really care anymore um damn my nose is so stuffy and my throat is on fire and i sure as hell know i didnt do anything to get sick like this again...... yet i guess me and missa are fine now we talked it all over and now we are kewlio i wish britney would tell ryan how it is or just leave him but i know she really likes him but there are so many other good people for her that she will never find if shes stuck up his dumbass well today i was supposed to have ISS which is anothe reason i didnt go to school who the fuck wants to spend there friday cooped up like a chicken in this tiny ass cold room filled with idiots not me im already failing math as it is thats just what i need is to sit in ISS when i could be trying my hardest to comprehend the vague shit mrs taylor attempts to teach i think i need to stop talking to older people especially guys because i really dont feel like going through more heart ache pain shit just over another fling but then again i cant help but think about all the fun times i could have i cant wait till i go to citrus i'll probably be pregnant before im a sophomore then im screwed...literally :) ok time for me to cough up another lung be on when im done ay that rhymes lol now time for some deep thinkin too ..oh here we go again....