When you're caligulove.
I've not really been myself lately o.O
There's this weird thing going on with my head that I can't quite put my finger on. It's not depression, I know what that feels like. And I don't think it's anything to do with the post traumatic stress hoopla (I think).
It's like my mind has a divide down the middle between rational thought, and emotional thought. And they are going to TOWN on eachother.
I'm drowning in all of these ridiculous emotional thoughts and feelings that I know aren't true, because the rational side of my brain is still, well, rational. But the emotional side is SO strong, they're still affecting me as if they WERE real and true. It's like if I went outside, and the emotional side told me that the sky was bright purple. I know it's not true, because the rational side tells me it's blue, but the emotional side is so strong and overwhelming that I have to keep looking at the sky to remind myself that it is, in fact, blue.
Is there a name for this? Am I just being hormonal? I don't have the usual monthly flood of hormones that most women do (hello no ovaries or other girly bits), but I still get a little out of whack now and then. But that usually happens at the start of the month, not halfway through. Is it the full moon? Am I just mental?
There's this weird thing going on with my head that I can't quite put my finger on. It's not depression, I know what that feels like. And I don't think it's anything to do with the post traumatic stress hoopla (I think).
It's like my mind has a divide down the middle between rational thought, and emotional thought. And they are going to TOWN on eachother.
I'm drowning in all of these ridiculous emotional thoughts and feelings that I know aren't true, because the rational side of my brain is still, well, rational. But the emotional side is SO strong, they're still affecting me as if they WERE real and true. It's like if I went outside, and the emotional side told me that the sky was bright purple. I know it's not true, because the rational side tells me it's blue, but the emotional side is so strong and overwhelming that I have to keep looking at the sky to remind myself that it is, in fact, blue.
Is there a name for this? Am I just being hormonal? I don't have the usual monthly flood of hormones that most women do (hello no ovaries or other girly bits), but I still get a little out of whack now and then. But that usually happens at the start of the month, not halfway through. Is it the full moon? Am I just mental?