do u smell that?
so im just realizing what optimism feels like. im so ready to start on my senior thesis and get the hell outta spelman college. and after that? who knows?? i have to talk to the dean about getting last year wiped from my transcipts with the hope of saving my GPA. Graduate school? MBA? JOB? all of these things are all big question marks right now, but im keeping my options open, if not for right now then for later. for once tomorrow looks bright and im opening my windows to let the sunshine in. how corny.
i kinda feel like a failure for taking a semester off... but then i compare myself (of course) to others my age and think "well damn! im not doing too bad!" did you know that only 12.5% of Black Americans have a BS or BA?! and only .5% have their PHD?? i can do this and this time im not even doubtful. andys been a really big support for me and im so excited about our future together!!
speaking of that guy, he and some friends are working on a full length skate video and its coming out pretty well! my hands are itching to try zack b's high def camera and im sure hed oblige me. im really proud of some of the tricks these guys are pulling up and down some treacherous terrain. pretty badass if i do say so myself. me and lauren have reconnected and she still putting herself in self-damaging situations with ppl who do nothing but hold her down-- and she knows it. i kinda feel that im gonna have to arrange a convenient accident for her leech if she doesnt break this whole "sugar mama drama"--mostly because andy wants to give him that long drop with a sudden stop. and we cant have him in prison now can we?
maybe ill get back into this whole livejournal thing. i really want to go on a trip somewhere tropical just to chill and romanticize with my boo. especially since these last coupla weeks of sleeping on the livingroom floor are wearing at my damn patience! GD if im suppose to be living with you and cleaning after you, can i have SOME personal space!! i love my sister to death but this is just a reminder that this is a temporary habitat.
well im off to do the things ive set off to do. mostly boring but im sure ill holler later!
ps- omg 21? oct 23? DSC? or drunken unicorn? FUCK YESS!