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When you were here before
Couldnt look you in the eye
Youre just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
Youre so fuckin special
But Im a creep, Im a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.
I dont care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When Im not around
Youre so fuckin special
I wish I was special
But Im a creep, Im a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.
Shes running out again,
Shes running out
Shes run run run running out...
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
Youre so fuckin special
I wish I was special...
But Im a creep, Im a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.
-radiohead
this is killing me. utterly killing me. and it's more than the damn ED, so much more. I honestly thought I was going to die in my sleep this morning, and i've always believed that I would react differently. but I couldn't.
I just put my phone next to my bed, and really thought there wasn't anything else i could do.
i thought about calling 911 but i knew i didn't have energy to walk the 30 feet to unlock the door and at the moment was too weak to talk.
i just cant take this anymore.
i'm just so fucking worn out, and i know i just come here to complain when i'm sick. ( however it's not like anything else is going on in my life right now that is even noteworthy--really)
i'm just trying to stay calm because deep down i know if i let myself breakdown and face the reality of things...there will be no comfort.
my drive to get better perhaps started there...but i was more than this and will be again. i'm not going to let this kill me.
i'm going to florida in a month...yeah, i need a tan. and to work on that drinking water thing,
Couldnt look you in the eye
Youre just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
Youre so fuckin special
But Im a creep, Im a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.
I dont care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When Im not around
Youre so fuckin special
I wish I was special
But Im a creep, Im a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.
Shes running out again,
Shes running out
Shes run run run running out...
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
Youre so fuckin special
I wish I was special...
But Im a creep, Im a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.
-radiohead
this is killing me. utterly killing me. and it's more than the damn ED, so much more. I honestly thought I was going to die in my sleep this morning, and i've always believed that I would react differently. but I couldn't.
I just put my phone next to my bed, and really thought there wasn't anything else i could do.
i thought about calling 911 but i knew i didn't have energy to walk the 30 feet to unlock the door and at the moment was too weak to talk.
i just cant take this anymore.
i'm just so fucking worn out, and i know i just come here to complain when i'm sick. ( however it's not like anything else is going on in my life right now that is even noteworthy--really)
i'm just trying to stay calm because deep down i know if i let myself breakdown and face the reality of things...there will be no comfort.
my drive to get better perhaps started there...but i was more than this and will be again. i'm not going to let this kill me.
i'm going to florida in a month...yeah, i need a tan. and to work on that drinking water thing,