I only just been paid, three weeks five days 'til I'm seen right...
Sometimes, I realise that I fit perfectly into one of society's little niches.
The one that inspired "Clerks"; the one that made Hard Fi write "Cash Machine"; the one that's fuelled generations of people to do something about "it" or just give up.
I'm a person who doesn't earn enough money, trying to live beyond his means, constantly in debt, petrified of bank statements. Politically apathetic because of the political apathy that surrounds me because I'm politically apathetic. Very good at pushing negatives to the back of my mind and not dealing with them until it's entirely essential. A little bit hypocritical. A happy person who generally gets depressed when thinking about his life.
I get the feeling that if I met me, I probably wouldn't get on with myself.
Does this kind of self-awareness come with getting older? I'm not under the illusion that I'm old,, but I do know that I'm older than a lot of people I know. I keep feeling it.
Do I want to change? Do I want to live a healthier lifestyle, eat better food, exercise more, be kinder to the world around me, walk instead of driving, pay lots of money to charity, get a better job that pays more and excites me, do something important with my life?
Yeah. Of course I do. But I'm too damned lazy and scared of change to stick with any of it.
For now, I'll just have to keep on shouting along to punk songs and wondering how it's all gonna end up.
The one that inspired "Clerks"; the one that made Hard Fi write "Cash Machine"; the one that's fuelled generations of people to do something about "it" or just give up.
I'm a person who doesn't earn enough money, trying to live beyond his means, constantly in debt, petrified of bank statements. Politically apathetic because of the political apathy that surrounds me because I'm politically apathetic. Very good at pushing negatives to the back of my mind and not dealing with them until it's entirely essential. A little bit hypocritical. A happy person who generally gets depressed when thinking about his life.
I get the feeling that if I met me, I probably wouldn't get on with myself.
Does this kind of self-awareness come with getting older? I'm not under the illusion that I'm old,, but I do know that I'm older than a lot of people I know. I keep feeling it.
Do I want to change? Do I want to live a healthier lifestyle, eat better food, exercise more, be kinder to the world around me, walk instead of driving, pay lots of money to charity, get a better job that pays more and excites me, do something important with my life?
Yeah. Of course I do. But I'm too damned lazy and scared of change to stick with any of it.
For now, I'll just have to keep on shouting along to punk songs and wondering how it's all gonna end up.