holidays don't feel like holidays at alllllllll
so, this morning started with zara presentation. i was so unwilling to wake up that i curled into a tight ball at the top of my bed, where my maid can't reach me to slap her hands on me to wake me up. haha, eventually i realised that i should stop lying in bed and just wake up, so i did. i wasn't late!:)
we reached at nine, but somehow with all the last minute-ness of the whole presentation and report and tying of loose ends, we only managed to start running through at ten. by then, tempers were running high, everyone was snapping at each other, a lot of black faces, a whole lot of raised voices, and a bunch of peacemakers in the sidelines, watching the drama and trying to get us to calm down.
first, let me get this clear: the zara people arrive at ten thirty.
at ten FIFTEEN, i was freaking out so much during the run through that i completely blanked out. stumbled over my words, couldn't remember for the life of me how to even speak, and i couldn't breathe. i froze in front of 16people, eyes squeezed shut, and prayed with the whole life of me that a hole would appear in the ground and swallow me up.
thank God it was only the dry run. my team mates were damn patient with me. i can't for the life of me imagined how they could be so sporting when i was being such an absolute moron, but they guided me through my nerves, helped me with my points, leaving enough room for only one more presenter to run through his slides; i was the first speaker.
screwed much?
while the whole room was still in chaos, the zara people arrived out of nowhere, and i promise, my heart just about shriveled and died in despair at how i just couldn't get over myself. the whole time the first group was presenting part 1 (i'm the first speaker of part2) i was praying like MAAAAD, and just writing down my points, over and over, trying to commit them to memory, remembering all the tips that my group members gave me.
thank GOD my brain was working even when my heart wasn't. thank God i had such wonderful group members who, seriously if it wasn't for them, i basically wouldn't be able to be here right now typing this post. because without the teamwork they gathered at the face of such last-minuteness and stress, miss mila would've came after me with a butcher's knife, made sure that i was chopped up and cooked into deliciously fatty stew to be served to the dogs.
so yeah, i'd have to say that the presentation today went okay (understatement of the year- which doesn't hold much weight since the year just started. still!) for me. credit goes ENTIRELY to God, jill, dennis, theri (hugging me superly tight. i nearly cried on her shoulder), norman, sze yee, sarah, yuting, herman (who just sat there and acted blur. making everyone laugh at his blurness and that cleared up quite a bit of bad feelings) and enna (who told me a lame joke that no one laughed at).
thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God, THANK GOD.
(yes, i typed that out. not copy paste, cause REALLY, thank God.)