love hurts
Enjoyed spending time with my parents. It was nice seeing them again. It was also nice going out to nice meals 3 nights in a row.
What wasn't nice was when my step-mom cut me off mid-sentence with exactly what I did not want to hear from her, the exact opposite of what I was about to finish with. (Will get to that in a sec.) Leaving me on the verge of tears. I was so glad she left the hotel room to go outside and smoke because I excused myself from my dad and brother's company and went and cried in the bathroom. I managed to calm down enough to spend a little more time with them once she returned, then my brother and I headed home. As soon as my brother left for work, I spent most of the rest of the night in tears. Or trying to keep them at bay by playing Birth By Sleep.
So what was this fiasco over? DATING SITES. See, we were watching tv together and this ad for a dating website comes on. I start to tell a story about this and she interrupted me mid-way through the first sentence. "My sister told my mom she was tired of seeing me single and that she wanted to buy me a membership to a dating site for Christmas, but--" "THAT'S A WONDERFUL IDEA! I'm going to have to tell her that it's a very good idea." Cue me letting the conversation drop as I'm left completely speechless by her outburst.
The full story I was about to tell? "My sister told my mom she was tired of seeing me single and that she wanted to buy me a membership to a dating site for Christmas, but my mom said no. That if I wanted to date right now, I would be finding a way to do that on my own. My sister was disappointed, but she understood."
My step-mom however went to add, while I sat there speechless that "Prince Charming isn't going to come find you if you don't get out."
I just. I'm not disinterested in ever dating. But I've had so many bad experiences with attempting to date people, and from getting on dating sites. I just don't want to ever purposefully seek it out again. Even the times I haven't sought it out, where the connection just happened and we decided to date... ended miserably. I have this bad habit of attracting complete creeps. Like the stalking kind. And the kind that pressures me to do things I don't want to and have a difficult time taking no for an answer. And I'm just done with it.
I'm not sure where that puts me, but I'll figure it out eventually. I just know that right now, that is the last thing I want. And it hurt to have someone I care about think the opposite and not allow me to express my lack of interest.
IN HAPPIER (spoiler free) NEWS. I got Birth By Sleep on Tuesday when it came out. I didn't get much time to play it while my parents were in town, but I've managed to get most of the way through Ven's story. Planning to do Terra then Aqua after I finish Ven's. I'm really enjoying the game. Well... after I installed and then TURNED ON the data install and upped the processor speed, I've had fun. Those loading times were ridiculously long. -_-;
The new Mickey voice actor is... decent I guess. I can tell it's not the original Mickey, but he's a close approximation. I'm not cringing every time he speaks, so that's a plus in his favor... I guess. XD
What wasn't nice was when my step-mom cut me off mid-sentence with exactly what I did not want to hear from her, the exact opposite of what I was about to finish with. (Will get to that in a sec.) Leaving me on the verge of tears. I was so glad she left the hotel room to go outside and smoke because I excused myself from my dad and brother's company and went and cried in the bathroom. I managed to calm down enough to spend a little more time with them once she returned, then my brother and I headed home. As soon as my brother left for work, I spent most of the rest of the night in tears. Or trying to keep them at bay by playing Birth By Sleep.
So what was this fiasco over? DATING SITES. See, we were watching tv together and this ad for a dating website comes on. I start to tell a story about this and she interrupted me mid-way through the first sentence. "My sister told my mom she was tired of seeing me single and that she wanted to buy me a membership to a dating site for Christmas, but--" "THAT'S A WONDERFUL IDEA! I'm going to have to tell her that it's a very good idea." Cue me letting the conversation drop as I'm left completely speechless by her outburst.
The full story I was about to tell? "My sister told my mom she was tired of seeing me single and that she wanted to buy me a membership to a dating site for Christmas, but my mom said no. That if I wanted to date right now, I would be finding a way to do that on my own. My sister was disappointed, but she understood."
My step-mom however went to add, while I sat there speechless that "Prince Charming isn't going to come find you if you don't get out."
I just. I'm not disinterested in ever dating. But I've had so many bad experiences with attempting to date people, and from getting on dating sites. I just don't want to ever purposefully seek it out again. Even the times I haven't sought it out, where the connection just happened and we decided to date... ended miserably. I have this bad habit of attracting complete creeps. Like the stalking kind. And the kind that pressures me to do things I don't want to and have a difficult time taking no for an answer. And I'm just done with it.
I'm not sure where that puts me, but I'll figure it out eventually. I just know that right now, that is the last thing I want. And it hurt to have someone I care about think the opposite and not allow me to express my lack of interest.
IN HAPPIER (spoiler free) NEWS. I got Birth By Sleep on Tuesday when it came out. I didn't get much time to play it while my parents were in town, but I've managed to get most of the way through Ven's story. Planning to do Terra then Aqua after I finish Ven's. I'm really enjoying the game. Well... after I installed and then TURNED ON the data install and upped the processor speed, I've had fun. Those loading times were ridiculously long. -_-;
The new Mickey voice actor is... decent I guess. I can tell it's not the original Mickey, but he's a close approximation. I'm not cringing every time he speaks, so that's a plus in his favor... I guess. XD