I should be sleeping...ugh
I just want to not work and not have to do homework. I want to stay home, wrapped up in a blanket watching t.v. and eat. I feel frustrated. Perhaps I don't want to talk to anybody. I just want a date with t.v. I hate the wind, it just sucks. Decisions suck as well. Chapped lips suck (thanks wind). Wet hair blows. Being sleepy is the worst. Having to wake up is actually the worst. Where's my peppermint hot chocolate dammit?!? I wasted SO MUCH time this weekend. This is about nothing because my serious thoughts and feelings I cannot express here, thus making my livejournal a pointless polutant on your screen. I know I spelled that wrong. Follow the wall... rebel...ignore...clean...nurture...and deep down inside I'm screaming at the very top of my lungs. This is why I understand those who do not fit within social norms -because they're free from everything I'm scared to rise above. I hate how I'm scared of everything. I am a fucking idiot for so many reasons. I wish I functioned more efficiently. Poor poor people. California is on fire. It's really sad. I don't feel like talking anymore. Sleep. Bye and sorry you actually read this.