when cramming and panic kicks in
it's nearing finals week and the deadlines and tests are on their way to take over at nagkakalat ako, punyeta. and what the fuck am i doing typing and updating my journal when i'm supposed to be researching? ugh.
during the weekend i was telling nas "next week di na muna ko tatambay sa papa rep. detox muna." but noooooooo. make one person beg and wave a red horse in front of you and hear kits rap in tagalog over akon's songs and they can never be ignored. sorry if i'm talking like i'm living my life and drinking like a college kid but that's mostly what we're doing these past few weeks. and, oh, the drama. that goes for some of us. but i'm happy happy happy (wow tatlo yon!) right now. like a giddy little schoolgirl (shut up) but yeah, i am. it's been a while. and it's about goddamn time. i'm new to the feeling of not having to explain myself, not trying to change because of pressure, and not trying to justify why i am the way i am, to think that i am an annoying creature of paradox. i've never been so proud and happy with myself as i am right now. in a simple metaphor, it's like a breath of fresh air when you get out of walking around quiapo for three of four hours. ayyyy ang panget.
we're not wild kids. magulo lang. at maingay. play niyo lang umbrella ella ella eh eh eh kakanta kaming lahat.
during the weekend i was telling nas "next week di na muna ko tatambay sa papa rep. detox muna." but noooooooo. make one person beg and wave a red horse in front of you and hear kits rap in tagalog over akon's songs and they can never be ignored. sorry if i'm talking like i'm living my life and drinking like a college kid but that's mostly what we're doing these past few weeks. and, oh, the drama. that goes for some of us. but i'm happy happy happy (wow tatlo yon!) right now. like a giddy little schoolgirl (shut up) but yeah, i am. it's been a while. and it's about goddamn time. i'm new to the feeling of not having to explain myself, not trying to change because of pressure, and not trying to justify why i am the way i am, to think that i am an annoying creature of paradox. i've never been so proud and happy with myself as i am right now. in a simple metaphor, it's like a breath of fresh air when you get out of walking around quiapo for three of four hours. ayyyy ang panget.
we're not wild kids. magulo lang. at maingay. play niyo lang umbrella ella ella eh eh eh kakanta kaming lahat.