does that make me crazy?
So doing all this research all the time about cyberterrorism is making me many things: frustrated, sick, tired, feeble, etc.
But I think its also making me crazy. All day long I am reading from paranoid people who are absolutely convinced that the end of the world is near, and a cyberwar is about to break out. Others say that the cyberwar has already begun.
I really hate doing this research. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I hate sitting in this library for 6 hours today and getting nothing done.
I am assigned to 4 professors within the COMM program: 2 to do research, of which I spend a lot of time with, and 2 to help with the class stuff, like proctoring exams and entering grades and such. All but one of these professors are new, so (I think) they have been assigning me to more than other professors would, maybe because they don't know any better.
The one professor that hasn't had me do anything yet is Dr. Butler. I went to see him today. Next week, I will have to proctor one of his exams. He told me that I have been doing an "outstanding" job, I have been "very dilligent", and he is going to tell Dr. Pryor about how great I've been doing. I haven't done a single thing yet.
Meanwhile, Dr. Matusitz is going to serve my ass on a platter tomorrow, and I have an inkling that he will give me a poor evaluation.
Dr. Matusitz is the one having me do research on Cyberterrorism and Telemedicine. It has been completely overwhelming. He wants me to have 20 pages of research, and these pages are 10 pt. font, single spaced, with 0.3 margins. Basically, there is no white space on these pages. Filled to the brim, you could say.
Now, there is a lot of information out there on these topics. Way too much information. So much, that I am having trouble finding themes. And I can't find material that isn't outdated. I can't find relevant material, or material with an author. All the journal articles I find are way too specific, and I can't get them to relate. Basically, I am having a terrible time trying to compile this research into neat little categories that he wants.
At our first meeting, he told me he wanted 20 pages in one month. He also wanted to meet halfway to go over my progress. Halfway was last week. When I showed up at his office, he wasn't there. On the phone, he told me that, because I never corresponded with him, he thought our meeting was cancelled.
Truth is, I didn't remind him about the meeting because I was afraid he would ask how I was doing with the research, and I would have to say "Very poorly." But I really wanted to meet with him because I am still doing very poorly and don't know what to do about it. Its not that I am not spending enough time, (Because I most surely am!) but for some reason, I have been incredibly inefficient. I read entire articles, and I don't know what/how to take notes on it. I would like to blame it on little guidance, but I don't think that will work. I suppose that I should be able to do this on my own. But evidently, I can't.
Anyways, I'm going to have to lay this all out on Dr. Matusitz tomorrow morning. I am so so so dreading this.
Promptly after my meeting, I will have to catch up on the research I haven't been doing for Dr. Davis. Then meet with Dr. Bogue to go over the test I wrote for his class (a class that I have never attended).
I wish I knew what grad school would have been like before I signed up for this.
But I think its also making me crazy. All day long I am reading from paranoid people who are absolutely convinced that the end of the world is near, and a cyberwar is about to break out. Others say that the cyberwar has already begun.
I really hate doing this research. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I hate sitting in this library for 6 hours today and getting nothing done.
I am assigned to 4 professors within the COMM program: 2 to do research, of which I spend a lot of time with, and 2 to help with the class stuff, like proctoring exams and entering grades and such. All but one of these professors are new, so (I think) they have been assigning me to more than other professors would, maybe because they don't know any better.
The one professor that hasn't had me do anything yet is Dr. Butler. I went to see him today. Next week, I will have to proctor one of his exams. He told me that I have been doing an "outstanding" job, I have been "very dilligent", and he is going to tell Dr. Pryor about how great I've been doing. I haven't done a single thing yet.
Meanwhile, Dr. Matusitz is going to serve my ass on a platter tomorrow, and I have an inkling that he will give me a poor evaluation.
Dr. Matusitz is the one having me do research on Cyberterrorism and Telemedicine. It has been completely overwhelming. He wants me to have 20 pages of research, and these pages are 10 pt. font, single spaced, with 0.3 margins. Basically, there is no white space on these pages. Filled to the brim, you could say.
Now, there is a lot of information out there on these topics. Way too much information. So much, that I am having trouble finding themes. And I can't find material that isn't outdated. I can't find relevant material, or material with an author. All the journal articles I find are way too specific, and I can't get them to relate. Basically, I am having a terrible time trying to compile this research into neat little categories that he wants.
At our first meeting, he told me he wanted 20 pages in one month. He also wanted to meet halfway to go over my progress. Halfway was last week. When I showed up at his office, he wasn't there. On the phone, he told me that, because I never corresponded with him, he thought our meeting was cancelled.
Truth is, I didn't remind him about the meeting because I was afraid he would ask how I was doing with the research, and I would have to say "Very poorly." But I really wanted to meet with him because I am still doing very poorly and don't know what to do about it. Its not that I am not spending enough time, (Because I most surely am!) but for some reason, I have been incredibly inefficient. I read entire articles, and I don't know what/how to take notes on it. I would like to blame it on little guidance, but I don't think that will work. I suppose that I should be able to do this on my own. But evidently, I can't.
Anyways, I'm going to have to lay this all out on Dr. Matusitz tomorrow morning. I am so so so dreading this.
Promptly after my meeting, I will have to catch up on the research I haven't been doing for Dr. Davis. Then meet with Dr. Bogue to go over the test I wrote for his class (a class that I have never attended).
I wish I knew what grad school would have been like before I signed up for this.