Apr 05, 2007 11:23
There is no escape. You can try and ignore it, pretend everything is okay. But eventually it will hit you. It will feel like a thousand pounds of pressure all at once descending upon you and your helpless to stop it. By avoiding it you've just made it that much stronger. That much harder to deal with. The good memories are now worse than the bad as they come simultaneously with an overwhelming sadness.
There is no guide for what your going thorough. Millions of people go through it everyday and yet it remains indescribable. Know body seems to understand completely. Nobody's experience is exactly the same.
It has absolutely no effect on any of your senses. You can't see it, hear it, taste it, smell it, or touch it. But it's there. Its an undeniable, indescribable presence thats almost like some sort of mind virus has to run its course.
They say time heals all wounds. But when that wound runs deep, its bound to leave a scar. Why isn't there a topical cream for the soul? Then again if there was, would you really want to use it? Or despite the pain, do we grow to appreciate the scar for what it represents to us?
sorry,
confused,
sadness,
reflecting,
coping,
change,
memories,
contemplative,
dealing