Ugh!
It can be SO frustrating when you decide something is worth your time, effort, concern, attention and you are inevitably proven wrong. It's like you think you can see something that isn't quite there. But you figure with the right influence it could really have the potential to be something great. At some point your "dream", as it were, either becomes a reality and justifies your efforts. Or you finally just accept that you were wrong, realize that what your dream was just that and cut your loses.
Nothing makes me feel like more of a failure than giving up. I hate it! I seriously think there has to be a positive solution to every problem. But sometimes its just too hard to reach that answer in time or it ends up costing more than its worth in the long run. I actually get angry just having the option to give up occur to me sometimes. I'd almost rather be blind to it altogether. But when things get tough, there it is. Growing more and more prominent while other courses of action fall away proving useless in their attempts to solve my situation.
Worse yet, sometimes I feel like I can see exactly how things will turn out. No matter what I think, do, say, it doesn't matter. Everything is firmly set in its course and I am powerless to change it in anyway. Like being strapped in a chair and being forced to watch a terrible accident that you knowcould have been prevented had you been free.
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Nothing makes me feel like more of a failure than giving up. I hate it! I seriously think there has to be a positive solution to every problem. But sometimes its just too hard to reach that answer in time or it ends up costing more than its worth in the long run. I actually get angry just having the option to give up occur to me sometimes. I'd almost rather be blind to it altogether. But when things get tough, there it is. Growing more and more prominent while other courses of action fall away proving useless in their attempts to solve my situation.
Worse yet, sometimes I feel like I can see exactly how things will turn out. No matter what I think, do, say, it doesn't matter. Everything is firmly set in its course and I am powerless to change it in anyway. Like being strapped in a chair and being forced to watch a terrible accident that you knowcould have been prevented had you been free.
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