Pause
Who hit the damn Pause button? I feel like all the important things in my life have been put on hold. I'm still waiting to hear back from my job interview. It still haven't got my comic script, Finding love always seems just out of reach.
Its all so confusing, I feel like I'm stuck in waiting mode. And as I sit here in this awkward limbo my mind likes to wander off to all the different possible outcomes to all my various situations.
And of course after awhile it'll have explored all the typical probabilities so it'll move on to the ridiculous.
"What if I never hear back from the job and I get stuck in the hell that is Grizzly forever?"
"What if the script to my comic is cursed? My comic is an abomination that CANNOT be created or it might change the entire fate of the world, therefore every attempt to relay the story to me is being thwarted by some unseen cosmic force in order to preserve our current destiny."
"what if I'm never meant to find love and be truly happy. According to my Chinese zodiac I'm "prone to marital strife". What if I'm SO picky that when the right person crosses my path I don't see them until its too late? Or what if the person I choose to be with isn't the right person and I'm made to be eternally unhappy?"
Of course I realize those are all quite silly thoughts that hold VERY little logical value. But be that as it may they all at some point or another plague my mind when there is nothing better to think about. I need something to happen! Something I can mentally latch to and explore. Something to fill my Brain Belly :-P
