*sigh*
Can I just say that weddings are VERY costly? Shazbot, what the hell did I get myself into? LOL The scary thing is I didn't buy much but happened to through down a couple of grand. How the eff did that happen? Hmm. Oh well, shrug.:P I'll manage to get myself ahead, it'll just take a few months. Bleh. I was *just* getting over moving into my place.
Speaking of which sucks, cuz I'm not doing any much of what I want to do financially. Just maintaining my current situation. Which is comfortable, but very much hanging by a thread. Living in SoCal is extremely costly. I spend $500 alone on gas, not including car payment, insurance, and maintenance. I drive a lot. I don't want to even go into the cost of rent. It's absolutely fucking ridiculous. That's not including the stress that I might actually finally get canned next week. I'm dead serious. To be frank, I'm tired of fighting too. It's like either I'm quitting or I'm getting terminated, but this situation is not going to continue. I'm exhausted mentally and emotionally. Something's gotta give.
Fuck their mantra of... "There will be no crying in air traffic control." It wouldn't escalate to that if they didn't allow it, but the system sucks. Need I remind everyone this is the same federal agency that said, "safety was never compromised" last week when we had the outage. Scariest moment in my life. I felt my heart stop... the radar just died. It looked like someone turned off a television set. We had no radios, no phonelines, no radar, absolutely nothing. But yeah... safety was neeeever compromised.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm very dissillusioned by the whole way things operate. I feel like I'm getting priced gauged in every respect. The housing is astronomical, the gas... anytime you mention the word "wedding" the price of anything and everything doubles, if not triples. And here I am just trying to exist comfortably, but apparently that's too much to ask for. It's like did I mention I drive pretty much in silence for 2 hours out of my day. It's terrible. I own a 2004 Lexus and my 6-disc changer kaput on me. WHAT THE FUCK?! The car is barely 2 and a half years old. How in the hell did the stereo system die? So yeah guess what? The manufacturer does NOT cover it. I could get it replaced for a refurbished one, for the bargain basement price of $600. Yeak thanks, but no thanks. It's not only the price but the princple of it all. I'm just so frustrated, I'm trying sooo hard and the more I try the less a difference it makes. Or so it seems.
Speak of which, what's this talk about, This Binary Universe? So umm, BT's releasing a new album with video? I had NO idea. Any thoughts/info anyone? I don't even keep up with the good tuneage because I'm too busy.:/ Anything else coming out soon that I should be lookin for? ;P Jeez, it's depressing. All I do is work and drive. I hope this crap gets better. I don't even see Anthony as much as I should. Between him working 7 days a week and my shift work... UGH. And the heat... omigawd the heat. It's killing me, effing humidity. It feels like Floor-ida. Make it better, Lord... please.
<-- me passes out
Speaking of which sucks, cuz I'm not doing any much of what I want to do financially. Just maintaining my current situation. Which is comfortable, but very much hanging by a thread. Living in SoCal is extremely costly. I spend $500 alone on gas, not including car payment, insurance, and maintenance. I drive a lot. I don't want to even go into the cost of rent. It's absolutely fucking ridiculous. That's not including the stress that I might actually finally get canned next week. I'm dead serious. To be frank, I'm tired of fighting too. It's like either I'm quitting or I'm getting terminated, but this situation is not going to continue. I'm exhausted mentally and emotionally. Something's gotta give.
Fuck their mantra of... "There will be no crying in air traffic control." It wouldn't escalate to that if they didn't allow it, but the system sucks. Need I remind everyone this is the same federal agency that said, "safety was never compromised" last week when we had the outage. Scariest moment in my life. I felt my heart stop... the radar just died. It looked like someone turned off a television set. We had no radios, no phonelines, no radar, absolutely nothing. But yeah... safety was neeeever compromised.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm very dissillusioned by the whole way things operate. I feel like I'm getting priced gauged in every respect. The housing is astronomical, the gas... anytime you mention the word "wedding" the price of anything and everything doubles, if not triples. And here I am just trying to exist comfortably, but apparently that's too much to ask for. It's like did I mention I drive pretty much in silence for 2 hours out of my day. It's terrible. I own a 2004 Lexus and my 6-disc changer kaput on me. WHAT THE FUCK?! The car is barely 2 and a half years old. How in the hell did the stereo system die? So yeah guess what? The manufacturer does NOT cover it. I could get it replaced for a refurbished one, for the bargain basement price of $600. Yeak thanks, but no thanks. It's not only the price but the princple of it all. I'm just so frustrated, I'm trying sooo hard and the more I try the less a difference it makes. Or so it seems.
Speak of which, what's this talk about, This Binary Universe? So umm, BT's releasing a new album with video? I had NO idea. Any thoughts/info anyone? I don't even keep up with the good tuneage because I'm too busy.:/ Anything else coming out soon that I should be lookin for? ;P Jeez, it's depressing. All I do is work and drive. I hope this crap gets better. I don't even see Anthony as much as I should. Between him working 7 days a week and my shift work... UGH. And the heat... omigawd the heat. It's killing me, effing humidity. It feels like Floor-ida. Make it better, Lord... please.
<-- me passes out