Am I still here?
Wow, I *think* its been over a month since I've updated? :X Who's to say... all I know is that I've very much neglected this journal since I went to Oklahoma and even since I've been back. There are a lot of things I've neglected of late and I'm not sure how to fix it.
Well, I really can't get into details at the moment about whats been going on; I'm using a computer at work. One of the many perks of having a great job. On the down side, my commute is INSANE and is eating away at me. I commute one way 87 miles... by the end of the day times that by two and I'm ready to keel over. On top of that my schedule kinda sucks. It wouldn't be bad if I lived closed but... uhh... I don't. My typical work week is as follows: Saturday 3pm-11pm, Sunday 1:30pm-9:30pm, Monday 8am-4pm, Tuesday & Wednesday 7am-3pm, and Thursday/Friday off. So yeah the schedule is killing me, as well as the gas and maintenance costs of the car(s). My maintenance just came up again... $250, on top of that I had to use the SUV so that was $400 I spent on 2 weeks worth of gasoline and I had to have that maintenanced too; another $50. I also have to buy some tires for my car so ya know thats gonna be about $1000. So I'm making a viable income but I don't notice it AT ALL. Between gas costs being ridiculously high and my long commute coupled with high living costs... I'm screwed. The rent is high everywhere, except Lancaster/Palmdale. But who the EFF wants to live up here by themselves!? Even to rent in Santa Clarita, which isn't all that... for ONE person is about $1200 a month not including utilities and I'd still have a commute of at least 30 miles.
I dunno I'm very disillusioned by the whole situation. I'm always tired and I NEVER have enough time to spend time with anyone, do what needs to be done and try to look over my maps and such every now and then. Invariably something always gets the shaft. I'm frustrated beyond words. Ya know I thought that once I'd be in this income brackett I'd feel some sense of accomplishment or relief but there's none insight. HOW THE FUCK DO PEOPLE DO IT??? I dunno I'm getting another increase soon, maybe next pay period, maybe things will look a little better. I don't understand why I'm so bummed out all the time, but I am. It seems the harder I try the more impossible the situation gets... sigh. I'll update with more later. Sorry for the pisser of an entry everyone. Hope you guys are doing great. :) *hugs*
Well, I really can't get into details at the moment about whats been going on; I'm using a computer at work. One of the many perks of having a great job. On the down side, my commute is INSANE and is eating away at me. I commute one way 87 miles... by the end of the day times that by two and I'm ready to keel over. On top of that my schedule kinda sucks. It wouldn't be bad if I lived closed but... uhh... I don't. My typical work week is as follows: Saturday 3pm-11pm, Sunday 1:30pm-9:30pm, Monday 8am-4pm, Tuesday & Wednesday 7am-3pm, and Thursday/Friday off. So yeah the schedule is killing me, as well as the gas and maintenance costs of the car(s). My maintenance just came up again... $250, on top of that I had to use the SUV so that was $400 I spent on 2 weeks worth of gasoline and I had to have that maintenanced too; another $50. I also have to buy some tires for my car so ya know thats gonna be about $1000. So I'm making a viable income but I don't notice it AT ALL. Between gas costs being ridiculously high and my long commute coupled with high living costs... I'm screwed. The rent is high everywhere, except Lancaster/Palmdale. But who the EFF wants to live up here by themselves!? Even to rent in Santa Clarita, which isn't all that... for ONE person is about $1200 a month not including utilities and I'd still have a commute of at least 30 miles.
I dunno I'm very disillusioned by the whole situation. I'm always tired and I NEVER have enough time to spend time with anyone, do what needs to be done and try to look over my maps and such every now and then. Invariably something always gets the shaft. I'm frustrated beyond words. Ya know I thought that once I'd be in this income brackett I'd feel some sense of accomplishment or relief but there's none insight. HOW THE FUCK DO PEOPLE DO IT??? I dunno I'm getting another increase soon, maybe next pay period, maybe things will look a little better. I don't understand why I'm so bummed out all the time, but I am. It seems the harder I try the more impossible the situation gets... sigh. I'll update with more later. Sorry for the pisser of an entry everyone. Hope you guys are doing great. :) *hugs*