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crap poker night last night. i took a friend of mine out for a drink in the middle of it because she is having relationship issues... when i came back, there was no room for me at the table, and all the alcohol i had purchased was consumed. the place was trashed, so i cleaned up a bit, but in the morning, it was still icky. i cashed out my 29 bucks in chips, and bid everyone adieu.
i need to reassess a few things, it seems. what to expect, mostly. what should i expect, from friends, lovers, myself? i don't really know. i don't want to be dissapointed, but every ethical instinct i have tells me i should be, when it comes to certain things. the real question is: am i dissapointed with them and thier actions (or lack thereof), or am i disappointed in me, because it's pretty apparent i should have known better than to rely on more than surface value... anything?
mama didn't raise no fool, as they say. but i sure feel like one.
playlist:
waiting for my ruca, sublime
son of a preacher man, joan osbourne
danny's all star joint, rickie lee jones
black jack mama, townes van zandt
i asked for water (she gave me gasoline), james 'blood' ulmer
cheap thrills, david allen coe
meet me in the morning, bob dylan
love me like a man, bonnie raitt
personal jesus, johnny cash
turtle blues, janis joplin
back door man, howlin' wolf
guilty, bonnie raitt
badfish, sublime
i'm on fire, bruce springsteen
you're a big girl now, bob dylan
hurt, johnny cash
i need to reassess a few things, it seems. what to expect, mostly. what should i expect, from friends, lovers, myself? i don't really know. i don't want to be dissapointed, but every ethical instinct i have tells me i should be, when it comes to certain things. the real question is: am i dissapointed with them and thier actions (or lack thereof), or am i disappointed in me, because it's pretty apparent i should have known better than to rely on more than surface value... anything?
mama didn't raise no fool, as they say. but i sure feel like one.
playlist:
waiting for my ruca, sublime
son of a preacher man, joan osbourne
danny's all star joint, rickie lee jones
black jack mama, townes van zandt
i asked for water (she gave me gasoline), james 'blood' ulmer
cheap thrills, david allen coe
meet me in the morning, bob dylan
love me like a man, bonnie raitt
personal jesus, johnny cash
turtle blues, janis joplin
back door man, howlin' wolf
guilty, bonnie raitt
badfish, sublime
i'm on fire, bruce springsteen
you're a big girl now, bob dylan
hurt, johnny cash