Hmm....
Yea, so my summer thus far is going well. I suppose. I've had to learn the hard way with a few things but nothing terribly devestating. (I hope) I've learned:
that my mother has these mood swings where I seem like I dont exist. Its like the only time I do exist is when something isn't done around the house or when the dishes arent washed, or the towels arent washed....or the house isn't clean. I hate that fucking shit. It's always the same shit. Always. My brother can be home all fucking day long and I come home from work and I get the pleasure of hearing her give me attitude about the house and this and that. I sometimes wish my brother was LIKED as much as me when it comes to chores. I swear, he sits on his ass all day, talks on the phone to people and helps them with their insurance woes. WHO GIVES A FUCK IF ITS A HARD JOB TO GET, IS IT A HARD JOB TO KEEP? :( I'm standing outside all day in the sun (its not terribly bad, trust me) but then I come home and just want to relax. :( :( I've been tired of it for way too long now.
I've also learned that people arent who you think they are. Cliche, I know. I couldnt help myself. Its true however, it really is. Take my relationship with Matt for instance. I thought things were always going to be peachy and a cake walk. WRONG! Most relationships have this kind of trouble from the very beginning (like...3 months into it) but not Matt and I. We held out this long without having any arguments and it was a good thing. A very good thing. We're both growing. We're both learning. We're both growing up....and we're doing it together. It's a hard thing sometimes, it really is. With both of us having responsibilties, it's a tough thing. It's also a hard thing when we take it out on each other. When we dont communicate as well as we should. When we just dont communicate at all. When we're stubborn about things. When we give each other attitude about stupid shit. Yea, it's hard. But it's worth it. It defintiely is worth it. Love is pretty much worth going through anything for.
Two of the lessons that I've learned so far in my summer. I've learned more.....I've grown more.....I've seen more, but I only feel like talking about those two for today.
that my mother has these mood swings where I seem like I dont exist. Its like the only time I do exist is when something isn't done around the house or when the dishes arent washed, or the towels arent washed....or the house isn't clean. I hate that fucking shit. It's always the same shit. Always. My brother can be home all fucking day long and I come home from work and I get the pleasure of hearing her give me attitude about the house and this and that. I sometimes wish my brother was LIKED as much as me when it comes to chores. I swear, he sits on his ass all day, talks on the phone to people and helps them with their insurance woes. WHO GIVES A FUCK IF ITS A HARD JOB TO GET, IS IT A HARD JOB TO KEEP? :( I'm standing outside all day in the sun (its not terribly bad, trust me) but then I come home and just want to relax. :( :( I've been tired of it for way too long now.
I've also learned that people arent who you think they are. Cliche, I know. I couldnt help myself. Its true however, it really is. Take my relationship with Matt for instance. I thought things were always going to be peachy and a cake walk. WRONG! Most relationships have this kind of trouble from the very beginning (like...3 months into it) but not Matt and I. We held out this long without having any arguments and it was a good thing. A very good thing. We're both growing. We're both learning. We're both growing up....and we're doing it together. It's a hard thing sometimes, it really is. With both of us having responsibilties, it's a tough thing. It's also a hard thing when we take it out on each other. When we dont communicate as well as we should. When we just dont communicate at all. When we're stubborn about things. When we give each other attitude about stupid shit. Yea, it's hard. But it's worth it. It defintiely is worth it. Love is pretty much worth going through anything for.
Two of the lessons that I've learned so far in my summer. I've learned more.....I've grown more.....I've seen more, but I only feel like talking about those two for today.