did not hurt
Heard from Tara today. And it did not hurt. In fact, I'm just now processing how I feel about it, but what i felt was not hurt. I think I've had enough distance from the whole situation that I just feel okay now. That's not to say that if we were to be together in person and she were to start to be flirtatious or ignore me or whatever she wanted to do that I would not be affected, but today, from a distance I was not affected and that is progress. Another thing I noticed is that I was not nervous talking to her. I usually would get very nervous talking to her and this time I did not.
She asked if she could call me to process something about her sister. Her sister Stephanie is currently homeless and living her car with her cats. For a few days she was staying in a seedy motel in upstate New York (near Albany)because she got vouchers from the welfare office. While she was staying there, she befriended a Chinese couple. The Chinese couple left the country for a few weeks and asked Stephanie to run the motel while they were gone. While she was running the motel, 3 people died while having a "pill party". Stephanie had to ID the bodies of the people who died! She told Tara that after IDing the bodies that the cop who was there with her said that he didn't think she was doing so well and recommended she go to a mental health appointment. He even made her an appointment. Then he said he was going to check and see if she went to the appointment. Stephanie does not remember details about why the cop thought that. She couldn't answer any of Tara's questions, but insisted that she was not homicidal, suicidal or in danger in any way. She doesn't know whether she signed any paperwork. Stephanie still works a few hours a week and the day that she was supposed to go to the appointment, she was stuck at work. She didn't make appointment. Somehow the cop found out about this and hunted Stephanie down and yelled at her for not making her appointment! Tara said that if she was not PECed that the cop had no right to do that and that she needed to contact a mental health advocacy group and that if she didn't know a group to contact NAMI. Both Tara and I didn't think this sounded quite right-I'm sure Stephanie is leaving a lot of details out. She also has been having tremors because of her Cymbalta dosage so that could have contributed to the cop's opinion that she needed help. We just don't know. Supposedly she had another appointment today. Tara is supposed to let me know how it all turns out.
She also talked to me about Taylor. He had an abscess on his arm from shooting up. He popped the abscess and then wrapped it in a towel. He then got a staph infection and had to go to the hospital. He told Tara that this scared him enough to stop shooting up-now he is only sniffing and trying to work. Tim (his dad) kicked him out because the deal was that he had to be clean to live there. Now Taylor is going to live with a friend who provides him with his supply. Geez. He is supposed to go visit Tara in Arkansas for Thanksgiving. Larry has no idea that Taylor relapsed. I hope it all works out.
After talking to her today, I think I am getting to the point where I'm thinking to myself-"How on earth did I ever fall in love with this woman?" I know Tara is a loving, caring person, but she is so closed of from feeling happiness and it took me so long to realize this about her. We talked for about 45 minutes and she had to go to a meeting for school.
Had a dentist appointment today-have 2 small cavities that I have to get filled on December 5th. I had my tooth cleaning and my hygienist was very gentle.
I ran into Rachel the other day in the office at NYU. We talked for a long time. She's working with Liliana-I'm so jealous! Cassie saw us talking and giggled-Cassie has a huge crush on her and calls her "Barry" when she wants to talk about her so that no one knows who she is talking about. Mike likes her too. They like her Southern accent. She's sweet and very intelligent, but oh so straight (and married for about 10 years) I can see that she is very pretty, but again, don't ever feel attraction for uber straight gals. Cassie says that all she likes are straight women. Poor her. She has quite the harem of "straight" girls who cater to her too. I told her to go see Perks and she did. I love our Monday evening pow-wows before my class.
I called in to work today because of the Nor'easter. Sandy and I might do another awesome role play for my Practice Class. I hope they like it.
Obama won-thank goodness! I don't agree with his foreign policy. I think it's abhorrent, but I agree with him on everything else.
I guess i'm going to go have some peppermint tea now.
She asked if she could call me to process something about her sister. Her sister Stephanie is currently homeless and living her car with her cats. For a few days she was staying in a seedy motel in upstate New York (near Albany)because she got vouchers from the welfare office. While she was staying there, she befriended a Chinese couple. The Chinese couple left the country for a few weeks and asked Stephanie to run the motel while they were gone. While she was running the motel, 3 people died while having a "pill party". Stephanie had to ID the bodies of the people who died! She told Tara that after IDing the bodies that the cop who was there with her said that he didn't think she was doing so well and recommended she go to a mental health appointment. He even made her an appointment. Then he said he was going to check and see if she went to the appointment. Stephanie does not remember details about why the cop thought that. She couldn't answer any of Tara's questions, but insisted that she was not homicidal, suicidal or in danger in any way. She doesn't know whether she signed any paperwork. Stephanie still works a few hours a week and the day that she was supposed to go to the appointment, she was stuck at work. She didn't make appointment. Somehow the cop found out about this and hunted Stephanie down and yelled at her for not making her appointment! Tara said that if she was not PECed that the cop had no right to do that and that she needed to contact a mental health advocacy group and that if she didn't know a group to contact NAMI. Both Tara and I didn't think this sounded quite right-I'm sure Stephanie is leaving a lot of details out. She also has been having tremors because of her Cymbalta dosage so that could have contributed to the cop's opinion that she needed help. We just don't know. Supposedly she had another appointment today. Tara is supposed to let me know how it all turns out.
She also talked to me about Taylor. He had an abscess on his arm from shooting up. He popped the abscess and then wrapped it in a towel. He then got a staph infection and had to go to the hospital. He told Tara that this scared him enough to stop shooting up-now he is only sniffing and trying to work. Tim (his dad) kicked him out because the deal was that he had to be clean to live there. Now Taylor is going to live with a friend who provides him with his supply. Geez. He is supposed to go visit Tara in Arkansas for Thanksgiving. Larry has no idea that Taylor relapsed. I hope it all works out.
After talking to her today, I think I am getting to the point where I'm thinking to myself-"How on earth did I ever fall in love with this woman?" I know Tara is a loving, caring person, but she is so closed of from feeling happiness and it took me so long to realize this about her. We talked for about 45 minutes and she had to go to a meeting for school.
Had a dentist appointment today-have 2 small cavities that I have to get filled on December 5th. I had my tooth cleaning and my hygienist was very gentle.
I ran into Rachel the other day in the office at NYU. We talked for a long time. She's working with Liliana-I'm so jealous! Cassie saw us talking and giggled-Cassie has a huge crush on her and calls her "Barry" when she wants to talk about her so that no one knows who she is talking about. Mike likes her too. They like her Southern accent. She's sweet and very intelligent, but oh so straight (and married for about 10 years) I can see that she is very pretty, but again, don't ever feel attraction for uber straight gals. Cassie says that all she likes are straight women. Poor her. She has quite the harem of "straight" girls who cater to her too. I told her to go see Perks and she did. I love our Monday evening pow-wows before my class.
I called in to work today because of the Nor'easter. Sandy and I might do another awesome role play for my Practice Class. I hope they like it.
Obama won-thank goodness! I don't agree with his foreign policy. I think it's abhorrent, but I agree with him on everything else.
I guess i'm going to go have some peppermint tea now.