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Hope this lj app works.
Anyhow, hey all.
Not sure what to say. Been depressed these days, rather apparent as to why. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I seem to be a disappointment among my family. And friends. I never felt so alone before. Now that I rely on my phone for IMs/internet I'm very limited these days. Perhaps I'm just going crazy perhaps I'm blind. I know you guys out there helped me out and proved otherwise and I thank you for that. I just can't help myself. I guess I'm a selfish greedy bastard that can't do anything right.
Good friends of mine are close to being homeless and I can't do anything about it. Currently trying to do what I can but still.... tragic..
Can't even throw a party for my baby brother. Nobody showed up for his birthday party. So sad..
Can't even get my mind focused for math. Nor can I make any decent arts. Seems like I'm just failing my courses... I already given up painting. I just don't have time for it.
I think my journal should end here. I never have nothing cheerful to say anymore. Nor do I have the time to check up on you guys. Which, I hope, y'all are doing well.
Thanksgiving and Christmas is going to be a sad story. I might as well say it. My dad is just going to be pissed off, throw food across the kitchen, bitch and ruin both events as he has done before.
My life... its just tragic. Learn from it and continue on for me.
I no longer serve a purpose.
Well, I guess this is it... I might as well say it.
Until I have anything good to say or my life turns around, ill just fade into the darkness.
Goodbye for now.
Anyhow, hey all.
Not sure what to say. Been depressed these days, rather apparent as to why. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I seem to be a disappointment among my family. And friends. I never felt so alone before. Now that I rely on my phone for IMs/internet I'm very limited these days. Perhaps I'm just going crazy perhaps I'm blind. I know you guys out there helped me out and proved otherwise and I thank you for that. I just can't help myself. I guess I'm a selfish greedy bastard that can't do anything right.
Good friends of mine are close to being homeless and I can't do anything about it. Currently trying to do what I can but still.... tragic..
Can't even throw a party for my baby brother. Nobody showed up for his birthday party. So sad..
Can't even get my mind focused for math. Nor can I make any decent arts. Seems like I'm just failing my courses... I already given up painting. I just don't have time for it.
I think my journal should end here. I never have nothing cheerful to say anymore. Nor do I have the time to check up on you guys. Which, I hope, y'all are doing well.
Thanksgiving and Christmas is going to be a sad story. I might as well say it. My dad is just going to be pissed off, throw food across the kitchen, bitch and ruin both events as he has done before.
My life... its just tragic. Learn from it and continue on for me.
I no longer serve a purpose.
Well, I guess this is it... I might as well say it.
Until I have anything good to say or my life turns around, ill just fade into the darkness.
Goodbye for now.