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I'm seriously tired of not being able to let go of my past. Stupid frakking OCD personality.
I think it would be really nice to choose whether or not I think about something. Anything. I seem to enjoy the masochistic sting, and enduring burn that comes from worrying about something I can't change.
It would be seriously awesome if my conscious mind had any sway over what occupied it. I try to distract myself, but it's like there's some unknown quota I have, that I have to worry about certain things for X amount of time before they settle back into the white noise.
Thank the powers that be for LAN parties, good friends, and a girlfriend who goes above and beyond the call of duty to help me manage my own brain.
Still, it would be nice if my facebook block settings applied to my eyes as well as my own account. That way I wouldn't need help in the first place. Failing, of course, my ability to just deal with my own shit, as I have consistently proven myself unable to do.
Sigh.
Anyone have a brain they aren't using? Preferably one with a simpler UI. I'd like to switch mine out for a while.
I think it would be really nice to choose whether or not I think about something. Anything. I seem to enjoy the masochistic sting, and enduring burn that comes from worrying about something I can't change.
It would be seriously awesome if my conscious mind had any sway over what occupied it. I try to distract myself, but it's like there's some unknown quota I have, that I have to worry about certain things for X amount of time before they settle back into the white noise.
Thank the powers that be for LAN parties, good friends, and a girlfriend who goes above and beyond the call of duty to help me manage my own brain.
Still, it would be nice if my facebook block settings applied to my eyes as well as my own account. That way I wouldn't need help in the first place. Failing, of course, my ability to just deal with my own shit, as I have consistently proven myself unable to do.
Sigh.
Anyone have a brain they aren't using? Preferably one with a simpler UI. I'd like to switch mine out for a while.