boy..i have no life!
Well today at school was the same as always, boring as hell! in the beginning of school i wasnt as depressed and tired as usual. But as the day came to an end everything was normal. depressed, tired and not in the mood to take anyones shit. and to add the topping to that salad, i came home and read the comments to my last entry, and only to get EXTREMELY pissed off at my best friend. What she said in there really pissed me off to the point that i wanted to beat the fuck outta her if i saw her.But she called before i saw her (which probably saved her from seeing the real me and feeling my wrath) and she said that the first part of the comment wasnt directed to me but to Jack who commented there to. Im not as pissed as i was but i still got alot of anger festering up in me which is bugging the fuck outta me. ima get that taken car of soon. But to Deana, Im sorry. for acting shitty on the phone and for making it seem like our social differences make my life hell in my last entry. Not soo true. I choose my life to be the way it is and i wish i could change it but i dont have the mental strength to put alotta effort into altering myself around just yet. Yeah i know...im pretty mental, but not the way i need it! ;) But its all good. someday it will be all better!!!
Sometimes I sit and wonder what its really about
Is this life worth living or is there an easier way out?
What good could come from this hell I live in?
They couldn't possibly know how hard it's been
Every night I lay and wish it will be the last
But every morning I wake up and hope it will be over fast
The longer I live the more disturbed I become
I sit and wish that he'll give me some
It'll happen when i'm least expecting it
It won't bother anybody in the least bit
I knew there wasn't anybody I could turn to
They say that there's nothing they wouldn't do
For some reason it seems their lying
The funny thing is that they think im buying
I only wish I could see their reaction
It would only be a small fraction
I can feel that my end of days are near
The Reapers coming and I got no fear.
One of my latest and most favorite poems ive written. if ya dont know me that well, then that poem should clear up one thing...Im a pretty fucked up person! lol Well im gonna go take care of some crap!!
Sometimes I sit and wonder what its really about
Is this life worth living or is there an easier way out?
What good could come from this hell I live in?
They couldn't possibly know how hard it's been
Every night I lay and wish it will be the last
But every morning I wake up and hope it will be over fast
The longer I live the more disturbed I become
I sit and wish that he'll give me some
It'll happen when i'm least expecting it
It won't bother anybody in the least bit
I knew there wasn't anybody I could turn to
They say that there's nothing they wouldn't do
For some reason it seems their lying
The funny thing is that they think im buying
I only wish I could see their reaction
It would only be a small fraction
I can feel that my end of days are near
The Reapers coming and I got no fear.
One of my latest and most favorite poems ive written. if ya dont know me that well, then that poem should clear up one thing...Im a pretty fucked up person! lol Well im gonna go take care of some crap!!