Annelise hates me
I feel really terrible. Annelise has declared that she hates me now. I made her really really mad. I feel so bad. It sucks! I don’t know how but she somehow she was able to decode my “anonymous” comment I did in Scott’s livejournal. I don’t know how she did it though. Is my manner of speaking really that obvious? I even tried to disguise my words. That sure worked. And she got really mad. I wasn’t really trying to piss anyone off. I was just getting annoyed with his profuse (much) use of the F word in his livejournal. He was using it too much for my liking so I wrote a comment in his journal. It wasn’t really any worse then any other insult I’ve said to anyone else I know. It was actually a lot nicer. At least in terms of owning people which must happen sometimes. I guess it really upset her though so she went off on this big tangent about what a dick I am and how I’m racist against homosexuals because I said his livejournal is gay. I was amazed that she would get so pissed about something I said to someone else and I was mad so I wrote some other stuff. Todd too. And she flipped out. Not at Todd though. Todd’s still an awesome guy which is another thing that I’m upset about.
So today she was really angry at me. I felt so bad. I really didn’t mean to upset her so much. She said that I was an asshole and that I was a total dick. And she said that I was especially dumb because I did it under anonymous. She thought that I was spineless that I did that because I was afraid of Scott. Hate to say it but there is no way that Scott could ever frighten me (Sorry Scott). I weigh more. What’s there to be afraid of. The only reason I did is because I had a feeling Annelise would get mad and I really didn’t want her to be because I wanted to stay friends and she has the tendency to hold grudges. I really value my friendship with her and I didn’t want to lose that. I feel really bad though. She even declared that I was no longer her friend. I countless times apologized to her but she was just like “shutup Ross”. Even when I came to see her and Todd and Adam at the little theater. I was like “hey Annelise” and she didn’t even look at me. So I went and talked to Todd. I’m not sure if this was her plan or not but she came over and started only talking to Todd and I tried to join in and she just looked at me like she hated me more then anyone else on earth. And then she started talking about how cool Todd was right in front of me and like gave him hugs and pitched his cheeks and talked about how cute he was. I felt so terrible after seeing that I couldn’t even watch anymore so I just laid down on the floor so I wouldn’t have to see it. I felt like shit. Then she left and only said goodbye to Todd and in my attempts to patch things up said goodbye and she didn’t even turn around. And then I said hi to her again when I walked by her on her way out and tried talking to her again and she completely blew me off and kept talking on her cell phone. So I went home. Rarely have I ever felt so depressed at the end of a school day. I feel really bad for hurting her but she isn’t excepting any of my apologies. I wonder if she ever will. I hope so. I’m sorry Annelise. Don’t stay mad.
As for the rest of my school day. It was terrible! I got more crap then usual today and few seemed to care that I even existed. It seemed like today was meant for me to be unhappy. I don’t like to admit it but I hate how my life is going right now. I doubt anyone even cares. I’m sorry I wrote such a long journal entry today. I just had to get all that stuff off my chest. Thanks for reading if you did. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Well, bye bye. :)
So today she was really angry at me. I felt so bad. I really didn’t mean to upset her so much. She said that I was an asshole and that I was a total dick. And she said that I was especially dumb because I did it under anonymous. She thought that I was spineless that I did that because I was afraid of Scott. Hate to say it but there is no way that Scott could ever frighten me (Sorry Scott). I weigh more. What’s there to be afraid of. The only reason I did is because I had a feeling Annelise would get mad and I really didn’t want her to be because I wanted to stay friends and she has the tendency to hold grudges. I really value my friendship with her and I didn’t want to lose that. I feel really bad though. She even declared that I was no longer her friend. I countless times apologized to her but she was just like “shutup Ross”. Even when I came to see her and Todd and Adam at the little theater. I was like “hey Annelise” and she didn’t even look at me. So I went and talked to Todd. I’m not sure if this was her plan or not but she came over and started only talking to Todd and I tried to join in and she just looked at me like she hated me more then anyone else on earth. And then she started talking about how cool Todd was right in front of me and like gave him hugs and pitched his cheeks and talked about how cute he was. I felt so terrible after seeing that I couldn’t even watch anymore so I just laid down on the floor so I wouldn’t have to see it. I felt like shit. Then she left and only said goodbye to Todd and in my attempts to patch things up said goodbye and she didn’t even turn around. And then I said hi to her again when I walked by her on her way out and tried talking to her again and she completely blew me off and kept talking on her cell phone. So I went home. Rarely have I ever felt so depressed at the end of a school day. I feel really bad for hurting her but she isn’t excepting any of my apologies. I wonder if she ever will. I hope so. I’m sorry Annelise. Don’t stay mad.
As for the rest of my school day. It was terrible! I got more crap then usual today and few seemed to care that I even existed. It seemed like today was meant for me to be unhappy. I don’t like to admit it but I hate how my life is going right now. I doubt anyone even cares. I’m sorry I wrote such a long journal entry today. I just had to get all that stuff off my chest. Thanks for reading if you did. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Well, bye bye. :)