There are some things that need to be said.

Feb 16, 2005 15:16

Chessy-

I was going to let all this shit go and just move on, but then I realized that I have left a lot of things unsaid. I hate to do this in such a public forum, but since you felt it was alright to say so many things about me here, it seems only fair. And this is a good a place as any to take a stand.
I know I can't stop you, but I really don't have the patience anymore to let you walk all over me. I don't like how you talk about me as if I'm a five year old. As if I don't know how to run my own life. As if you know better. If I was smoking crack and had an abusive boyfriend then stepping in would be the thing to do as my friend. However, just because the things that make me happy don't live up to your high standards, does not give ypu the right to talk down at me like I'm some petulant child.
I know I've changed and that upsets you. You don't like it because I'm not the person you fell in love with, I'm not James anymore. I don't need you to come to my rescue and dress my wounds. I can do those things for my self now. I'm not the weak person that you knew. In many ways, you are the reason I changed. Whether you were aware of it or not, you hurt me. You strung me along with false hopes and fucked with my emotions, but I was in too deep at the time to recognized what was going on. My best option after everything was said and done was to become a stronger person, so that no one could do that to me again.
So now, after everything you put me through, I give you no right to decide that you know what's best for me. If you want to hate me after everthing I've had to say, that's your decision to make. If you want to put all this shit aside, talk it out and stay friends, I'm up for that. Either way I will respect your decision.

-Jenn
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