Aug 18, 2006 22:55
"Come down now," they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
"Come down now," but we'll stay.
I was thinking about this song today while I was cleaning up my classroom. I just spent an entire week with 10 three and four year olds, and I always ask myself why I do it if it is so stressful. Then, at the end of the week, it seems like it was a breeze. Worth my time completely.
And my former clarinet teacher had her baby. She and her partner sent pictures. But everything looks perfect from far away. There are no social stigmas or scary moments of self-doubt. Just the wonder of life and of the fullfillment for two people who some don't see fit to parent, but are really two of the best people I know.
And I want to double major in art history and psychology with a minor in music. Away from school that always seems like a good idea. Then the work hits. But if it's what I truely want, then I can deal with it. But everything looks perfect from far away. So it's okay.
I have to leave Minneapolis again. But in the grand picture of it all, it's not for very long at all. Even though everyday seems like time has slowed down just for me...just to make it worse. But then, it's over. And I'm home.
I suppose you're supposed to pay attention to details. And worry about reality more. But everything looks perfect from far away. It's all perspective. You pay too much attention to the details that make up the whole and you miss what you have been working towards. The little goals towards social change that take place everyday. The beauty that life really holds. All because we are too focused on ourselves, on our time, on what is still left to do.
But if we all step back, our lives are pretty good. Of course there are things that need work and change. But that doesn't mean we must dwell on them. Just because kids are exhausting doesn't make it worthless. Just because there can't be gay marriage doesn't mean two women who have the most beautiful family aren't as important in the fight for equality. Even if that is too much work, if I really want to achieve those degrees, then it will all work out. Leaving home is not permanant either. Each day may seem long, but my home will still be Minneapolis.
Perspective. It's all about perspective. You've got to step away sometimes to see how beautiful and wonderful life really is.
They will see us waving from such great heights
"Come down now," they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
"Come down now," but we'll stay.