Jun 21, 2009 20:28
I need to run away for a day or two. Maybe a single day would be enough, but I feel like hiding. It's kind of interesting because I've always been, as Mrs. Ford would call me, a "social butterfly." The Amy I know needs to have every day booked. There needs to be plans for after work every night and the weekends should include at least one date night and some time with our family and friends. The Amy I am familiar with needs to be busy and surrounded by people ALL.THE.TIME.
I don't know what's changed in me, and I can't decide if it's a good thing, a bad thing or just a different thing, but I am now requiring some "Essential Amy Time." I have had something to do every single night, without exaggeration, for AT LEAST the last two weeks. House hunting seems to be filling in the gaps between trips to the gym and family gatherings. I'm getting worn out. I need some time to re-charge.
I think therapy might have something to do with this too. It seems like lately I'm thinking about a lot of really deep issues and that in itself is exhausting. Add that to a jam-packed schedule and I'm slowly fizzling out.
I'm not sure what to do here. With the state of the market, if we see a house listed that we might be interested in, we have to jump on it or it will slip away. That seems contradictory to what we're hearing about on the news, but this is truly a buyers market, especially for investors. Houses are from "Active" to "Pending" in a matter of days with multiple bids. People are paying CASH for homes right now. This seems like a bit of a digression, but the point is that I can't even feel comfortable saying "Wednesday night is Amy night!" because there is a good chance we'll be looking at houses Wednesday night.
That is another issue I'm struggling with; Am I really, truly comfortable with being a homeowner right now? Do I really, honestly feel like this is a good decision? Part of me says "yes" the other "no." That needs to be reconciled with a quickness. I don't want to waste anyone's time, and being that our Realtor is also a friend, I don't want to keep wasting his if we're not going to go through with this.
Ugh. I need a mental health day.