As my tumblr tag says: writing is hard, yo
I don't know what it is, but I am always so relieved to get to the end of a first draft of a fic. Yes, there's always more work to do beyond that draft, so much to fluff out and smooth, but in a way starting every fic is like jumping off a cliff for me, and I spend my whole time writing it hoping that I'll have a soft landing at the bottom... or that there even is a bottom, because I could just keep falling - and writing - forever. I usually know where the fic is ending, but I don't trust that I can reach it. I'm so happy when I get there and can hold the full story in my metaphorical hands.
It's silly, because I've been telling stories as long as I could speak, and just within fandom I've written more than two hundred fifty fanfics, more than half of that in Glee over the past couple of years. (JFC, can't think about that.) I've written millions of words of fiction in my life, and I've finished almost everything that I've started. There are absolutely some fics languishing in my GDocs, some of them substantial, but it's a tiny percentage compared to what I polish up and post.
And yet it's a leap of faith every single time that I'll be able to turn these images in my head into a story. Every time.
Am I the only one? When you start writing, do you know you'll finish that story? Do you doubt yourself? What do you do about it besides keep putting one word after another?
It's silly, because I've been telling stories as long as I could speak, and just within fandom I've written more than two hundred fifty fanfics, more than half of that in Glee over the past couple of years. (JFC, can't think about that.) I've written millions of words of fiction in my life, and I've finished almost everything that I've started. There are absolutely some fics languishing in my GDocs, some of them substantial, but it's a tiny percentage compared to what I polish up and post.
And yet it's a leap of faith every single time that I'll be able to turn these images in my head into a story. Every time.
Am I the only one? When you start writing, do you know you'll finish that story? Do you doubt yourself? What do you do about it besides keep putting one word after another?