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im feelin bad. i dunno. im just so sick of all my god damn emotional attachments. this is why i have never been in love. im never willing to put myself on the line so that i can easily get hurt. ive never trusted anyone with all my heart before. in some ways, i guess its good. but i resent it now. i think maybe it has disallowed me to grow in ways that others i know have. and i dont know what to do about it. on the other hand, i sometimes i grow unnecessary emotional attachments to people that often dont realize this, and unintentionally hurt my feelings because i think i would just seem to weird if i told them so i dont. its a stupid way to be and im working on it. i just wish there was a definite way to fix things..
the simple answer might be to actually put myself on the line...ahh if only it were as simple as it sounds..
im...lost.
there are people in my life that i dont know where to place. i dont know i feel about them and i cant commit to any one place. and i cant really be ok with leaving them somewhere in the middle in my own mind. i know it sounds weird. im just constantly sorting things out in my mind.
and my parents are not making it any better. stress stinks...arrid works. lame, i know.
i'll just say that i feel stupid. and childish. and somehow set aside. yes, that pretty much sums it all up. im too embarassed to get any more detailed.
"there must be a million stars in the sky, but all you can see are the tears in your eyes. time is too precious to cry the whole night through. so tell me. i'll listen. is there anything i can do?"
~toni price~...i just really love that song.
the simple answer might be to actually put myself on the line...ahh if only it were as simple as it sounds..
im...lost.
there are people in my life that i dont know where to place. i dont know i feel about them and i cant commit to any one place. and i cant really be ok with leaving them somewhere in the middle in my own mind. i know it sounds weird. im just constantly sorting things out in my mind.
and my parents are not making it any better. stress stinks...arrid works. lame, i know.
i'll just say that i feel stupid. and childish. and somehow set aside. yes, that pretty much sums it all up. im too embarassed to get any more detailed.
"there must be a million stars in the sky, but all you can see are the tears in your eyes. time is too precious to cry the whole night through. so tell me. i'll listen. is there anything i can do?"
~toni price~...i just really love that song.