Update

[flamestone]

 So yeah, figured it was time I did this - I've missed a lot again.

• Boy is now diagnosed as severely depressed and getting help. He started taking anti-depressants today.
• Boy and Girl broke up last week, they'd been dating a while. It was rather depressing.
• ADL is working on his depression with suicide-help people who are keeping an eye on him and he's finally getting a few things sorted. He might be coming back to redo his third year here next year.
• I was cast in 'A Clockwork Orange' (a play version of the book, with music in), but I quit that on Tuesday because it was really upsetting me to be failing so badly.
• I've had my first exam - 202, which I revised badly the day before due to various shitty things, and so have probably failed.
• I can't remember the last time I had a decent night's sleep.
• I can't remember the last time I cared.
• Or anyone else cared, for that matter.
• I'm now talking to a counsellor (sort of) about the fact I'm helping two severely depressed close friends. Apparently people who do that need help and support. Or something.
• I'm running out of money, and SFE keep messing me around, but I can't be arsed to ring them and sort it.
• I want to quit LUTG and the exec.
• The other week, I got more drunk than I ever have before, such that I don't remember half the night, and I scared my flatmates so much they stole my alcohol supply for like a week.
• I bought the entirety of Dangermouse and Jeeves and Wooster on DVD the other week. The former is awesome. I can't be arsed to watch the latter - like most things at the moment. I seem to swing between mega busy and alive, and just... dead.
• I just want to get away sometimes so bad it hurts. But I can't afford to, and I can't be bothered to. So I don't.
• Haven't started revising for 204.
• I handed in and completed my 201 project (4000 words on graphic novels) and my 203 portfolio. Pulled 3 all nighters for those... pretty sure they're average, so at least I'll probably pass.
• Might (if I can afford it) be going to see Les Mis over the summer.
• I really really want a kitten.
• I am very lonely. But also want to be left alone.
• I talked to my brother for the first time in months yesterday. He sent me two texts. Ha. Hi, brother.
• My granny is in hospital for some operation. Everyone's a bit worried about it because she's been rather frail and a bit depressed recently. Hope she's OK.
• Everyone I know is angry or depressed or lonely or all three.
• The world is full of very shit people.
• The world is full of people who really don't care.
• I don't even know why I have this blog any more.
• I have to start my dissertation soon. Thinking of doing something about Sherlock Holmes and his representations in different media.
• How do you know if you're suffering from caregiver burnout, or just depression? Or if you're suffering from either?
• Strongbow is not as vile as it used to be. Tequila-lime squash is lovely.

 
Oh, why do I even bother?